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这几天我都没好好的睡，心里想着很多很多永远都说不完的问题。在多一个礼拜，我就正式的可以说不是个学生了。当然，如果不继续读书，那只剩下做工。钱永远都是钱问题。 心里在想，如果选择做工，那几时才是读书的“最佳时候”？我很懊脑。可能就是因为我们的脑就是会这么的想，所以有时后会想的特别的远。 回想着我这21年就这么的度过，我到底在我的人生里做了什么？今年已经21了，如果说我会在年迈60岁时离人间，那么我其时已经浪废了我几乎3分之一的时间了。 我真的好想停下脚步，多了解这个世界，不过我还不能到达那个地步，因为每有钱。 现在的我只希望在我剩余的日子，我能达到我要的东西而且能平平安安的活下去。

Hi all, at last, a picture of me looking slim, ok, only on my face. Thanks to Duo Ling aka Doreen, she took this pic and I dunno why and how I look like as if I slim down alot. IN FACT, I dont think I slim down at all. Hahahah. Took this picture when I meet up with Zann, Lena, Doreen and Joanna to go career fair. Career.... What do I want to work as? If you all get to see me again in RP, dont get shock because I really think that I may get retain due to the FYP presentation. I guess its too late to say anything now and I have tried my best to shut the evaluator up. I just hate the feeling of not knowing your results and they gave you a kinda face that makes you think that you might not be able to make it. Worst, they ask individually what we do and thus they make it more obvious, trying to seperate the team with answers like " I do this, I do that"... I hate to use the word I do, afterall, it is meant to be a team working on a project and that the amount of work to be distr

Had my FYP dry run today with Anne Tan, my supervisor. I thought everything went well and out of the sudden, she ask me :"Zhitong, what have you do for the website?" I went stunned, mute, quiet, shock. I do not know what to answer because frankly, I never touch the new application, which is Joomla at all. All I do is report, finding information for our shopping cart spices and sitting beside my teammates and VERBALLY said out what I want in the website and they did the things I said out. I never never click nor touch the Joomla before and thus when she asked me, I went mute, so do my teammates. She say:"What did you do?" So I replied her saying that I did all those blah blah blah which I stated above. She told me that I must be able to convince the evaluator on what I am doing. I do not know why, but I sense that chances for me to retain another semester is high. UT grades sucks, FYP now got so many stuff which I dont know how should I put it. On that day, what shou

Have been sending in my resume to alot of companies and apply different kind of positions. Hopefully after I graduate, I am able to get a job but before I start my working life, I would really want to have one month for myself and just rot at home and do whatever I want. After submitting FYP, I feel so empty man. Nothing much to do at home and just like today, a Wednesday, where I do not have class but used to go back and do my FYP, and after the submission, today, I sleep until 3pm. Hahaha, pig hor, but I am really tired man. Took another nap at 6pm until 8pm. Going to sleep once I type finish this entry. Oh, for those who haven't watch the 9pm show in channel 8, HUANG JIN LU, it can be found in youtube. I love youtube man! Monday class was a crap. Its econs class but my team laughed alot. So far, I only love econs class but I LOVE TO TEAM UP WITH JASMINE, JIAN WEI, YONG XUAN, ZANN AND WAN LIN. These are the people whereby if I team up with them, we will just laugh the whole day.

Finally, tomorrow is the day where I "married" off my 13 weeks of "daughter", which the name is FYP, to RP at 12pm SHARP! I am gonna dump her as far as I can and get it over with all the "discussion" on 23rd Jan 2008 at 1pm sharp! Meeting RP's "parent" to negotiate a good deal and I hope that day will give me luck so that I can get a good deal from RP's parent. I think those who are in RP should know what I mean. Marrying off our "daughter" is indeed really a good way to relieve ALL MY STRESS that I have since September until now. 6 months of torture from my "daughter", I don't love "her" at all. I have dress her up prettily and make sure that "she" is ready to be scan by RP's parents. I think I am a bonker now. I get emo easily. I want to hide from everyone. I do not want to reply nor pick up phones. I am crazy and yes, I think I am. I am really breaking down. Maybe because I am stepping in

I SUCKS IN STUDIES. I SUCKS IN MAINTAIN R/S WITH FRIENDS. I SUCKS IN WORK. I SUCKS IN SUCCEEDING. OK, I SUCKS. I really got the hatred feelings.

Yeah, its 2008 now. Will it be a good year and a good start for me? I hope it will be because I am graduating in one more month. What should I do? Study or work? Please do not ask me to study and work at the same time because I received a call yesterday, on 1st of Jan, STARHUB CALLED ME AND FIRED ME. Should I laugh at it? Well, its proven that I can't work and study at the same time. Don't ever said I never try or I do not want to do it but its indeed hard. After working so many months, I never even save. I gave almost all to my mum and my Msia trip. Studies is still the usual, it sucks. Some friends have let me see their true colours. No console but just giving me those comments. Yeah, take it or leave it, always this sentence. I talked to the wrong person. Wanna find someone to console me for losing the job, well, maybe I deserve it but instead of what I got, tonnes of comments. I learnt that not all people you can talked to and not all friends will msg you and ask about you.