EatSleepEnjoy

Was surfing around in my facebook, looking at some profiles ( I wont name whose I have look at), I just realise everyone is in pairs. Am I starting to mind that I am not in a pair? Nope, I am seriously fine with been single for the rest of my life (because I have seen how and what my father did), but I do mind alot if the friends are able to give me time, not little time, but quality and quantity time. As I grow older, at the current age of 25, I know what are the wants I want to have in my life. Is it wrong or do I have a wrong/different mindset about sharing? To be frank, I hate sharing. Sharing of knowledge is of course ok. What I meant here is sharing of wealth, finance or anything that is related to money. Like for instance, just moments ago, my dad ask if I have $300, I did not even consider or think through or ask why do he need that amount, my reply to him was NO, I do not have $300. I hate the fact that I do not know where my money goes to if I were to give it to him. This is

Yes, I feel like shutting myself up. Life is miserable where your so call best friends are having no time for you and even if they have, what we do are simple dinner. Cant I have friends that I can go out and play with, go travel together, have WHOLE DAY TO MYSELF and enjoy. I am so sick and tired of really meeting one by one. All got husband or boyfriends. I ask myself, where do I stand in my friend's life. Friend, is it just a touch and go? I envy those who have friends. I wonder HOW THE HELL they have time for others, not me. Worst, my current job are in shift basis. I am not childish because I SERIOUSLY do need friends to give me their time, and not just simple dinner. I need one whole day, a whole day relaxation.. At last, my long awaited holiday (since 2008) has been here. I am going to Taiwan this Sept with a poly friend. U see, thats how pathetic it is. Why cant I have bunch of friends to go overseas with? Its like stages of life. First stage, you rely on friends. Second

Yeah, I wish it will turn better. Hopefully real better. At the current phase of my life, I have been questioned on when am I going to find a bf. Oh well, to be frank, I cant find one because I am not pretty, nor I know how to dress up myself. Like one of my colleague says, guys will always choose the ones who knows how to dress or doll themselves up. Erm, I just dont feel like dressing up or doll myself. Its so not me.. My parents really went to the extend of wanting to introduce me guys. I was questioned if I am straight or not.. I had a few friends who asked me if I am interested in girls. Seriously, I am not interested in anyone right now. The one I used to get interested in are attached. I had missed the chance already so... I didnt had a chance to blog about the camp I went in Outward Bound and NACLI. Anyway, to cut it short, my one week of camp WAS TOTALLY AWESOME! Know a few friends and they are totally a bunch of nice people. Misses them bits. I have also book my ticket in Sep