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 Looping 刻在我心底的名字 song now. Its damn heart wrenching; the tunes, the lyrics, the tempo... Did you guys have a good 2020? Its November, and December will be coming in a blink.  This year has been quite down and low. With not just COVID19, a friend who lied, I recently get to know from my ex-patient's mum that she has passed away. I have seen many death during my course of work and the impactful ones that I remembered till now are Mdm G and Ms SZ. Their death were impactful to me because it made me reflect about their lives (to my limited understanding), and I know they were fighting in living a life. I know they were contented with what they had. I know they were also lonely and yet not lonely in their lives. It made me reflect very deeply for these past few days about my life. 我们真的应该好好学着活着，充实自己，做自己喜欢的事，花时间在 closely connected 朋友上，不然，一眨眼，晃一晃，几十年就不见了。 Take care readers.

Totally forgotten I can ventilate here via my blog. 只想说，被欺骗的感觉是不好受的，尤其是一位你认为能真的成为你好友一生的六年朋友。 自从三月起，陆陆续续其实就知道这位前朋友犯了 circuit breaker 的法律. 好心劝阻反而被觉得是在念她。也就在三月我们吵了一次。 想问，为何一位我认同也觉得聪明的朋友当要9有一个男朋友就反而变笨了?一个32岁，男的21岁。是因为男生年纪小，女方的想法需要变笨吗? 我真的恨朋友对我撒谎。我非常讨厌被骗。谎，是没有分好或不好的谎。谎言就是谎言。 这次，我反而没哭因为她真的做错了，可是她那理直气壮的态度令人作恶。 I really took her as a close friend and for a 21 year old, if she think it's worth losing me as friend, she is not worth keeping as a friend.

I was asking myself, what's the purpose of keeping this blog alive? Who still reads them? Looking back in year 2004 onwards, blogging was one of the most famous way and a method to use in media to spread messages. Bloggers try to write well, and try to interact with readers. For my "level" of bloggers, we basically just wanted an area to vent our frustrations to work, to life, to friends, to families, to society. Now, when I look back at my blog, I am glad I didn't close it down. 2019 was great except to this lady who blocked me in WhatsApp. Well, nothing much to say about her and the action of why she does that. 2020 will definitely be pack. Hopefully 2020 will allow me to gain some experience that I have never gain before, be it work or personal life. I am glad I have a bunch of good friends who keeps me sane all the time. I am glad I am in the process of ageing and that my knowledge grows. I am glad that I am in the right place now. Everything just fe