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Decided to pen this down and not wanting to forget what I have processed about my growth over the years. Had these thoughts processes happened while I was deleting some photos in my Google Drive and I cant help but had my mini reminiscent therapy by looking at those old photos. Some of my friends are aware that I am currently under weight control/weight loss program. I signed up for 24 sessions of gym and has been on training since 4 April 2021 till end Sept 2021. The weight loss was significant to me that to those who have not seen me for quite some time, I am pretty sure you would be able to spot the difference. Now, the growth I am talking about is not weight. Well, those photos did reflect the times where I was not so fat till I was really damn fat (84.7kg). I am 75kg now, hovering between 75 to 76kg, which it has already made me feel good. The growth I am talking about are more of the changes I see in myself. I felt that: - I have grow some wisdom. I think I was not so clever last...

 First entry for 2021, done using my new purchased gaming laptop. Hahaha, my first gaming laptop in my life! Well, 2020 was a year filled with surprises, sadness, frustration and anger; mainly due to COVID19, relationships soured and worsen. 2020 did not end in big bang but instead, ended with many ponders and uncertainties about the future. Come 2021, now March, with April on its way, time passes indeed really fast. This year will remain as a challenge to move forward. I hope for 2021, I will have interpersonal growth, more particularly on management on conflicts at work. Ok, I am definitely excited getting this new laptop. Tata guys! I probably will update here more often!

 Looping 刻在我心底的名字 song now. Its damn heart wrenching; the tunes, the lyrics, the tempo... Did you guys have a good 2020? Its November, and December will be coming in a blink.  This year has been quite down and low. With not just COVID19, a friend who lied, I recently get to know from my ex-patient's mum that she has passed away. I have seen many death during my course of work and the impactful ones that I remembered till now are Mdm G and Ms SZ. Their death were impactful to me because it made me reflect about their lives (to my limited understanding), and I know they were fighting in living a life. I know they were contented with what they had. I know they were also lonely and yet not lonely in their lives. It made me reflect very deeply for these past few days about my life. 我们真的应该好好学着活着，充实自己，做自己喜欢的事，花时间在 closely connected 朋友上，不然，一眨眼，晃一晃，几十年就不见了。 Take care readers.

Totally forgotten I can ventilate here via my blog. 只想说，被欺骗的感觉是不好受的，尤其是一位你认为能真的成为你好友一生的六年朋友。 自从三月起，陆陆续续其实就知道这位前朋友犯了 circuit breaker 的法律. 好心劝阻反而被觉得是在念她。也就在三月我们吵了一次。 想问，为何一位我认同也觉得聪明的朋友当要9有一个男朋友就反而变笨了?一个32岁，男的21岁。是因为男生年纪小，女方的想法需要变笨吗? 我真的恨朋友对我撒谎。我非常讨厌被骗。谎，是没有分好或不好的谎。谎言就是谎言。 这次，我反而没哭因为她真的做错了，可是她那理直气壮的态度令人作恶。 I really took her as a close friend and for a 21 year old, if she think it's worth losing me as friend, she is not worth keeping as a friend.

I was asking myself, what's the purpose of keeping this blog alive? Who still reads them? Looking back in year 2004 onwards, blogging was one of the most famous way and a method to use in media to spread messages. Bloggers try to write well, and try to interact with readers. For my "level" of bloggers, we basically just wanted an area to vent our frustrations to work, to life, to friends, to families, to society. Now, when I look back at my blog, I am glad I didn't close it down. 2019 was great except to this lady who blocked me in WhatsApp. Well, nothing much to say about her and the action of why she does that. 2020 will definitely be pack. Hopefully 2020 will allow me to gain some experience that I have never gain before, be it work or personal life. I am glad I have a bunch of good friends who keeps me sane all the time. I am glad I am in the process of ageing and that my knowledge grows. I am glad that I am in the right place now. Everything just fe...

Lots of things has happened since the start of the year.  One of the good thing was, this "sister" whom I used to regard as and relied on, unlocked me a day after my birthday and again, blocked me back on 5th April. A date will never forget again. Brings alot of pain to me whenever I recalled these issues. I just hope that she was less sensitive. Went London, Paris and Amsterdam this March. Was a really great trip! Would definitely go again if I have the time. Work has been really great. Good and positive things are coming along the way. I am glad to have been given some opportunities at work to perform. I just hope I will give my very best and of course, hope that the best would work out for me. Health, of course, is going up and down. It is a phase that everyone has pass it.  Life has been great to me, with only a sadness episode of this lady whom blocked me off. Till the next entry, take care you peeps!

Amidst all the negative incidences that has happened to me which resulted me in thinking alot, I had this patient's family who texted me with encouragement words. Been working as a social worker for 5 years and on and off, I do get positive feedback and encouragement from the families. I just wanna share that these encouragements and positive feedbacks plays an important role in keeping me going. I'm sure everyone has ever thought about quitting the job when u hit some pit in your work. Then you start to question yourself if it will be right to quit and find another job. I had a few of such thoughts, thinking about working as project manager, some executive roles, or even to open a food stall (I can cook pretty well, just need some "enhancement" in my skills.). 5 years, I am still glad I am in this industry. This is the longest I have ever stay in the industry. I have plans and I hope it works for me. Gotta chiong all the way to achieve it. Take care peeps.