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Sitting in Uedo Park, beside Tokyo National Museum. Had alot of thoughts running through my brain. Friendship with this 姐姐 has gotten worst over the months which resulted me into getting panic attack. Was diagnosed with it and I am currently on medication. What else can a friend do to you? I tried working it out with her but she is just so shut towards it. I am so tired that I wish she can be totally erase in my memories. Travel was suppose to be fun but how irony it is at how much a person can does that damage to you. You just simply have no mood. You just simply know it's not gonna be the same again anymore. I am 31 this year, what have I done? This whole thing is a mess. Everything with this 姐姐 is a mess. I am in a mess myself. Just tired. Hope I can really enjoy my holiday.

I have never been so stress in my life. You guys do not know just how much I have cried. Even typing this entry now just make my eyes well up. July Father had aneurysm ruptured and we were told by the doctors his chances of survival was 50%. I did not shed a single tear when doctor mentioned the survival. In fact, those who knows me well knew that l have not spoken to him for the past 2 years. Honestly, l was ready to accept the worst turnout, where he would pass on. When he was in A&E, I was thinking about his funeral. Thinking of how to manage, what to do, how to console my mum and brother. When he was sent to ICU, reality questions set in. Questions like what about his work? What about his bank loan? What about the family? Am l gonna be sole-breadwinner? Anyways, father went through a tough time. Admitted to KTPH, neurosurgeon met up with me and had an explanation about his condition. After explaining, he told me that there are 2 methods to do it. 1st would be endoscopy, wher...

We are in the month of June 2015 now. Can anyone tell me the speed that the time is travelling now? These 6 months has been good, near to great though. This year is a year where we will remember greatly due to the passing of Mr. LKY. This is also another year where SG celebrate its 50. Its gonna be a emotional national day. Went Tioman in April and take a short break. My break frequency has increased tremendously. The upcoming trips that I am going to go will be Ho Chi Min in August and then Perth in October. Looking into Myanmar in November. Work wise remains the same. Had a little change in portfolio. I am no longer taking OPC but rather doing referrals now. Our dept still short of MSW though and am currently taking one ward and other half of the other ward. I must say, I still love this job despite at times been reprimanded by family members who are unreasonable. I was told to be in the planning committee for this year upcoming D&D. Hopefully the whole organisation would l...

Had a friend who helped me ask her director if there is job opening. Was asked to call the director on Monday but I didn't due to my voice. Am still sick now since 5/1/2015. Contemplating if I should call because the friend says that the staff is gonna leave in Feb. Asked a few person for opinion, including my boss as well. I am really grateful to have such an open minded boss, who would listen and give fair comments. I seriously appreciate such people and this is also the reason why I am still contemplating if I should call. Anyways, lets see how it goes. I am curious to what the other organisation can offer. January 2015 was not a good start for me. Fall sick, some unfinished business in work, feeling super tired as compared to Dec 2014. I hope its not signs of burn out. Attended a wedding yesterday and was one of the sisters. While going through the process, I was telling myself, "I do not want to have such gate crash, outdoor shoot and wedding banquet for my weddin...

I am asking myself, 'How long more do I want to blog?' I love my blog address and it was created since 2008. I bet if I were to give it up, someone is gonna use this address. Going to K.L tomorrow. Though is nowhere far, hopefully it can help me rejuvenate me alittle. Work is still as great as ever. Colleagues are still as fantastic as ever (except one). I am still getting scared by some colleagues. Life is getting better. Brand new year, brand new resolutions, brand new attitude, brand new experience.

As usual, work is still as great as ever. Colleagues are still the best as ever. Environment of the work place is still as fantastic as ever. My weight and height still remains the same as ever. Hahahaha! I have been given new portfolios for work. Now, my portfolios consists of ward, processing of IDAPE and Eldershield and Outpatient Clinic. Love the portfolio now but still do feel imbalance about the pay. Recently, a friend of mine shared with me that civil servant are gonna get a total of 2.1 in this year end. If I say I am not affected, this is bullshit and lies. I was so affected that I went jobstreet and look at the job offerings. Hahaha. Alright, I am cool now. As compared to previous entries about work, changing to current portfolios benefited me a lot. My relationship with the colleagues, not just in my dept, are doing great. Of course, there is still this one person that will make me go diarrhoea and palm sweat if I were to see her around. Initially this symptoms happened ...

I have lost track on the number of times I have went for my rehab. What my right shoulder can do now is that I am able to raise my arm up till 120 degree. It is still not as straight as it should be. I do still feel alittle tightness on the front keyhole surgery area, which I was told by the therapist that its the tendon area that was affected. I can only do weights of up to 2kg. In another words, I can lift straight up with 1kg or 2 kg dumbbell. I guess this is quite bad because op was done in march, but till now I am still on the road to recovery. I can now totally sleep on the right side with no issue. Life in work hasnt been that bad. From the last updates, 2 staff has quitted and 1 left to further her studies. 3 newbie came and join the team. Recently, I am starting to think about leaving my current workplace for a better pay. I have somewhat told my manager about it. She seems fine with it. My intention of tellng her is not to have her to ask me to stay but because she simply...