EatSleepEnjoy

2012-01-17T16:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 2012!! No new resolution but I know 2012 will be really brand new year, with brand new job, and brand new challenges! In fact, I am waiting eagerly for the challenges. I really want to know where is my limit of been a social worker.

Chinese New Year is also around the corner. I havent even buy any new year stuff. But oh wells, I think my family is also not the type where we will really celebrate new year.

For this year, I wanna go Korea and/or Taiwan again. Need a break man..

Take care peeps

回味

2011-11-29T13:28:00.003+08:00

空气中的气味, 熟悉的罗厘引擎声, 老人的背景, 来来往往的人, 吹着的自然风。这些都让我回味和钩起好多的回意。空气的味道就让我回想起懒洋洋的童年下午。我会在我婆婆家, 睡着午觉, 起来时就会有每个傍晚电视播的 Wheel of Fortune, 然后就会有婆婆煮的晚餐, 包含了鱼, 菜, 肉和汤。熟悉的罗厘引擎声是在我常要入眠或是睡得快醒时都会常听到的。会听到这些是因为婆婆住在二楼,然后我所睡的地方不是客厅就是房间。而这两个地方都面对着超繁忙的马路,所以自然的就会听到这些我们常说的 '喳音'。

I want to go back to the past.

Resolutions??

2011-11-02T03:06:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah, I have tonnes of resolutions for the coming year. That will be getting rid of my blardy fats, get my car license (I presume I shld be alittle debt free), find a new job that is able to tie in with my 6 months of attachment and travel again!!

Ohhhhh, not very excited about the coming year because it simply means I am getting older, and parents are getting older too.

Work hasnt been that bad recently.. Like I said earlier, all I need is time to learn. Of course, as and when I still do get "warnings" which I do find those warnings ridiculous. I find it no meaning at all. In any workplace, it is good to practice give and take. Never to always take from us but never give anything back. Its a very reality thingy. You demand something and take from us, we do expect a return, any form of return. So practising give and take is good and in a workplace, we shldnt be that calculative. It just gets on my nerves whenever people are calculative and are demanding.

Anyways, the frequency of me blogging has drop TREMENDOUSLY as compared to the days in poly. Hahaha, miss secondary school and poly life so much!

I yearn for freedom!!!

Feeling weird

2011-09-28T09:53:00.003+08:00

I had this weird feeling ever since I come back from Taiwan. I feel that my life has been missing something. Its hard to explain it using words or even by verbal. I just sense that prolly the thoughts I had in Taiwan will come true.

After I came back, I also realise that the life here are so fast pace. A week of life in slow pace mode, all I see in Taiwan was enjoyment in their work and life. I realised I complain alot on how bad my jobs are previously (on all the jobs I am in). I mean, everyone do confirm 101% complained but what I saw in Taiwan was a different story. A 'welcome' from the staff in 7-11 is so uncommon in Singapore, whereas in Taiwan, it is so common and it seems like a must to do it. People are friendly and helpful, in fact, too friendly and I was taken aback.

I love the weather, people, places, sights, things, food, shops, streets...

Give me a year more, once I graduate, I will seriously take a month's break to enjoy life. Have been rushing too much in my life. Its time to slow down my pace, enjoy every single thing that is going through me.

Taiwan trip!

2011-09-25T01:22:00.003+08:00

Yeah, after a super long awaited 3 years, I went to a 7 days 6 nights trip to Taiwan, Taipei. Know a new friend there. The place is freaking awesome! Took alot of pictures but am damm lazy to load it up here.

Went to Jiu Fen, Ye Liu, Tan Shui, Shilin, Ximending, Maokong Gondola, CKS Memorial Hall and some other nitty gritty places.

Taiwan is really an awesome place to be in, and also stay in. People there are fantastic! They serve with great smile, Q to enter the train/MRT/highrail, are super friendly, have a relaxing life and not in rush, food are great to the max!

I am actually tempted to go over to Taiwan and stay. Seriously, it is so damm different from Singapore.

Holiday time always passes so fast. Last week of today, I was, or prolly I should say, I went Tan Shui and had the best time there. Beer, massage, food, shop, sight seeing... Fantastic!

Will go back again next year with mum. Can see that she also wanna visit there. I was looking into the calender of this year's Dec but I bet I can take leave.. Well, the place I work in are unlike other offices, as we have shift, leave are to be taken in turn. So yeah, I have sort of "use" up my turn and its time for other people to go.

Maybe its time to change a job where I can really enjoy life, work yes, but to enjoy the work and life. All I can say is, I am really a stubborn bitch. Should have... Should...

EOS 60D

2011-08-19T09:33:00.003+08:00

Bought my DSLR!! And I have name it as Poldy.. Anyways, just to nag here alittle.. Quite a few things happened in this month. First is my extraction of tooth, and then I got shocked by someone who asked me or I would say, question me if I still wanna stay in my current workplace. Yeah I know its a duhhh question and it seems like I am be doubt on whether I can do my job properly or not. Thats why the only thing I am looking forward now is to graduate and become a social worker.

Life is of course getting better. With better pay, lousy working hours, I do not get to meet up my friends that often. Few days ago I had a meet up and the session was not that good to me. I seriously dunno or prolly I should say, I am not in their path anymore.. I guess they were talking about getting pregnant or keeping fit now in preparation to get pregnant. Whereas me, still single, do feel left out. The topic is so different.. Thats why, I dont feel like attending weddings now because the topic will be different..

Anyways, gonna collect my tripod,memo card and bag later at haaaarrrborrr front!! Thats freaking far!

Pair

2011-07-29T23:16:00.003+08:00

Was surfing around in my facebook, looking at some profiles ( I wont name whose I have look at), I just realise everyone is in pairs. Am I starting to mind that I am not in a pair? Nope, I am seriously fine with been single for the rest of my life (because I have seen how and what my father did), but I do mind alot if the friends are able to give me time, not little time, but quality and quantity time.

As I grow older, at the current age of 25, I know what are the wants I want to have in my life. Is it wrong or do I have a wrong/different mindset about sharing? To be frank, I hate sharing. Sharing of knowledge is of course ok. What I meant here is sharing of wealth, finance or anything that is related to money. Like for instance, just moments ago, my dad ask if I have $300, I did not even consider or think through or ask why do he need that amount, my reply to him was NO, I do not have $300. I hate the fact that I do not know where my money goes to if I were to give it to him. This is maybe one of the reason why I have the idea of not wanting to get married.

Pair, this word here, I do hate it at times, but I do also admit that I envy those who are in pairs. So friends, PLEASE, give me some of your time and spend with me for I DO NOT HAVE ANY OTHER PAIR I CAN SHARE WITH.

Alright, a few things I am planning to do to make my life even better (though my so call best friends are not giving me time at all). First is to REALLY GET MY BUTT AND BUY ONE DSLR CAMERA. Second thing is TO BLARDY GRADUATE LAH! Third is to SHOCK MY MOTHER BY BUYING ONE PLASMA TV HOME. Fourth is to GET MY LONG AWAITED CAR LICENSE BY NEXT YEAR. Fifth is to BUY A LAPTOP. Ok.... all need money, so which means, I MUST WORK BLARDY HARD!!

Take care peeps.

Shutting myself

2011-07-20T21:53:00.003+08:00

Yes, I feel like shutting myself up. Life is miserable where your so call best friends are having no time for you and even if they have, what we do are simple dinner. Cant I have friends that I can go out and play with, go travel together, have WHOLE DAY TO MYSELF and enjoy. I am so sick and tired of really meeting one by one. All got husband or boyfriends. I ask myself, where do I stand in my friend's life. Friend, is it just a touch and go?

I envy those who have friends. I wonder HOW THE HELL they have time for others, not me. Worst, my current job are in shift basis. I am not childish because I SERIOUSLY do need friends to give me their time, and not just simple dinner. I need one whole day, a whole day relaxation..

At last, my long awaited holiday (since 2008) has been here. I am going to Taiwan this Sept with a poly friend. U see, thats how pathetic it is. Why cant I have bunch of friends to go overseas with? Its like stages of life. First stage, you rely on friends. Second stage, once you have a boyfriend, at times you rely on friends for gossiping and nagging about the boyfriends. Third stage, when married, ALL NO TIME, dont even think abt having their weekend to be spent with you. Fourth stage, once they have babies, THATS IT, friends are gone forever because they will only have families in their heart.

I am so tired, so sian, so pek cek, so feel like just cutting off ties with everyone because it is a vicious cycle to a person like me, whereby I am not going to or any chance I will get myself a boyfriend or married.

Cut ties..... Its time before the fourth stage reaches.

Better, hopefully..

2011-07-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

Yeah, I wish it will turn better. Hopefully real better. At the current phase of my life, I have been questioned on when am I going to find a bf. Oh well, to be frank, I cant find one because I am not pretty, nor I know how to dress up myself. Like one of my colleague says, guys will always choose the ones who knows how to dress or doll themselves up. Erm, I just dont feel like dressing up or doll myself. Its so not me.. My parents really went to the extend of wanting to introduce me guys. I was questioned if I am straight or not.. I had a few friends who asked me if I am interested in girls.

Seriously, I am not interested in anyone right now. The one I used to get interested in are attached. I had missed the chance already so...

I didnt had a chance to blog about the camp I went in Outward Bound and NACLI. Anyway, to cut it short, my one week of camp WAS TOTALLY AWESOME! Know a few friends and they are totally a bunch of nice people. Misses them bits.

I have also book my ticket in September for the trip. I cant wait for September to arrive. How I wish September is going to be next month.

Currently, I am having this thought on "AM I REALLY 25 THIS YEAR?" I have accomplished anything yet. I can really sense that the 30 is really coming into my way. My parents are getting old, I am getting older too..

I hope I can see some changes in my life soon..

Truthfulness

2011-06-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

Its impt for me that people are truthful to me, in any aspect. Be it truthfulness from a friend, in work by client, bossea pr colleague, family members. I believe I have shown clearly enough that I am a person who can accept all comments and I do take tgem seriously. I do not like the fact that the message was passed to other person and then to me. Its not the comments that makes me feel sad till the extend of really wanting to cry, but I feel like crying because I have really put in my true heart to treat everyone truthfully. I dont like to talk tactfully, esp to friends or working colleagues because I believe we are facing each other almost everyday and been truthful and frank to each other is impt. I had a lesson learnt. Prolly I should not be that frank. I just cant help it but to think for the past few months, the conversation that we had among ourselves, is it done truthfully or it was a test for me to let you guys see what kind of person I am. The first reaction was of course shock, shock to know that I WAS that bad, and people has been noticing me in whatever I do within their presence. I am sad, because I thought I am not in that world anymore but then, I have been proven wrong.

Like what Joey said, it pays nothing to be kind & truthful. True.. So true...

Life has been great!

2011-05-25T01:25:00.004+08:00

Life has never been so fantastic. I feel that it was right for me to go CC. Although I do feel that going back to the previous job will grant me more freedom and allow me to grow ever better in creativity and probably increase the list of related-industry peeps, but still, I am gladful to be here. Life is getting so well now that the colleagues in CC seems to be my friend rather than colleagues. Of course, age plays a part to it. Almost all are youngster (only a few are much more experienced) and it is so much more easier to communicate because we all have the same frequency, the way we talk are the same, the way we work too are also the same. The only bad thing about this job is, all of us are unable to go out and play together because it is a shift work.

As for school wise, well, my exams just finished not long ago, probably few days ago. Now I only pray for a pass, nothing much. I just simply cant afford to fail again anymore.

The month of May was such an exciting one. June will be too, then comes July and then August. We will only have to wait till August for our public holiday..

Gonna have camp in Pulau Ubin this coming Thurs! I am sure it will be a fun one, but of course, there are some other things I am worrying about. I just hope it doesnt bring me pain and making me pale or probably faint. Hahahaha. Its irritating to know that it will happen, especially during the camping days. Dammit la really..

Anyway, to be honest, I feel revitalised and refreshed after working in CC. The first job that I found by myself was the RAS job whereby I have worked there for 2 years. CC is officially the so-called second job that I found by myself. The previous job in ITE was not found or search by myself. Instead, I was been referred by friend and going through only a round of interview and I got it. Basically they hire me because they are in need of people. In fact, I seriously still do not have interest in finance or accounting, though both of these talks abt money.

Overall, I dont ask for much. All I ask is really a peaceful working life with great colleagues (possibility of becoming friends) and enjoy every single hour of work with people in the office. I just hope everything can now go by my way instead of not giving me the initial way, and offered me another way which I humbly accepted.

It will be a great workplace with great colleagues, and I truly believe so! :)

Enjoying every minute, every seconds

2011-04-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

I am enjoying every minute at work and every seconds spend there. The feeling is exactly what I used to have when I was working in RAS.

Well, although my off days are alittle weird (weird in the sense that I have one off on weekday and one on weekend), I love the idea of having an off day during weekday because if you were to go out during weekdays, there is not many people in the street. Everything seems so peaceful and you can and are able to feel the breeze when walking along the street.

Work has been excellent. So far there isnt much problem and I really enjoy helping those elderly in their enquiries. My morale is quite high now thus this is probably the reason why I am enjoying every moment. Of course, I do hope this feeling can continue.

I am glad that I had a group of friends who were there to listen, to console, to laugh, to enjoy every moment with me. Thanks Joey, Xiao Wei and Anna.

Exam is around the corner and this time round, I really must pass and get good grades in order to pull my gpa grades up.

Thats all for now. Take care peeps.

Welcome the new ones!

2011-04-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

I left my old job and I welcome the new job with my big wide arm. I totally love the environment. I think environment in the workplace is damm impt because it can makes you feel motivated and makes you wanna go to work. I havent speak to my director yet but the people there has already make me feel so comfortable. Saw one lady in HQ today who looks totally like my another friend (Gean). I got soooo shocked to the max man! Its really really like as if they are photocopied of each other. Anyway, its really really.. they both just look alight to the max. Well, I can sense that I am willing to slave for the current job like what I did previously in my first job. This job is offiicially the second job that I found by myself. Hope my "sense" is correct and can mix and work ard well with them.

Decided

2011-03-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

Decided to go PA. Well, when tender, colleague ask me where am I going, I told them that I need to focus on my studies because my grades are very bad now and I need time to revise and study. Nobody knows the actual reason, and of course, I hope they never know where I am going to.

Its really a pain and drag to go to work now. I forgo my bonus because the other side cant wait. The amount was quite alot. $4664 is the amount of the bonus for this performance and growth variable this year.

I am stupid to give up but then, friends has been telling me that bonus is never ending... Very true... Prolly I will enjoy more at the other side than working with people with fix mindset and certain working culture. They dont accept new ideas so... Yeah! I hope I make the right choice.

Recently my body hasnt been in good shape. Not in terms of physically THAT SHAPE, but my body's immunity is getting from bad to worst. Though I am big, weighing 73kg, height of 176cm, and people always have this concept that I am strong and fit, but in fact, the truth is, I am not. I was admitted to hospital when I was age 5. Stayed there for 2 weeks under observation and doctor says I got low red blood cells count and thus concluded to my parents that I might have Leukemia. It is a terribly horrible place for me to stay. The nurses will come to me daily, 2 times a day, to draw my blood for sample. The drawing of blood is really till today, still a nightmare to me. I remembered clearly how I struggle to break free from about 4 nurses who tried to hold and press me down so that I dont fidget or move when they are drawing the blood. I remember I cried so badly everytime they draw. I was so skinny like a malnutrietion kid and was extremely underweight. Yes, you have read it correctly, I was extremely underweight until Secondary 2. Thats when puberty hits me and POOF!, I grow to what I am now, and is still growing non stop.

Few days ago, in my life, I think it has first ever time hit the pit. I was emo-ing non stop, thinking alot of negative stuff. Well, some family matters happened and it brought me down to the max. I realise when I need a friend to listen to me, I dont have.. To my best friend, whatever that is happening now on me, prolly to them, its like "listen and thats it" that kind of attitude. I also realise everyone is thinking about themselves and they replied with just a few sentence of HUH?, ORH, HAI~. Then I suddenly realise, maybe each of us are living in our own world. My definition of friends has changed. Friends used to be struggle together with you, understand you every bit and will seriously be there for u when u need one. Now, my new definition is Friends are to hang ard, talk cock, play and fool ard, at times of course serious talk, but after the talk, it will ust simply end in a "ok lor, say liao then say liao, no need to follow up or remember", that kind of ending.

I am tired. I am really very tired. I am tired of working full time, knowing that I am not doing anything I like but I have to do. I am tired that in 24 hours, 8 hours are for slping, 9 hours are for working, 3 hours are for travelling to and fro for work, the rest of the 4 hours are like mixing ard at home, watching little bit of tv, talking to parents and spending it with friends, unless your friend is not married or attached, then sometimes, this 1 to 2 hour of time you can truly enjoy in peace. I am left with how many time in a day for myself to think through what I have done was meaningful?

I am tired that the surrounding are slowly consuming my time. Forcing me to do things that I dont want but have to.

我真的好累。I really need a rest soon after 3 years of working non stop.

To R or C?

2011-02-26T22:53:00.003+08:00

Hahahah, its not RC but I am thinking to R or C? Anyways, I think I have got the answer already and hopefully it will not be a wrong move.

Recently, I realised people tend to forget people easily, especially those who was once close with you. I am glad to have some friends who were supportive and willing to take time to listen to my nonsense.

Had my dinner at KFC and I saw this family of 4, sharing 2 sets of rosta. Their 2 little sons were ard the age of 7 to 10. Their sharing of food kept me thinking about some unfortunate families in Singapore. The kids were super happy when the dad brought the set to them. The wife didnt take a bite, the father, been a man in mid 30s, had only half the burger and the rest were given to the sons. One of the son was also nice enough to really ask the mum, elder bro and father if they want the mashed potato that he is having. The mashed potato left only almost half portion. 3 of them said no to him and he eat it slowly.

I dont wanna assume that they are poor but the sharing was indeed touching. How many of us still practice sharing? Share by means of the true meaning of sharing, not because you want to lose weight, or you cant finish, or you are full, but share because they are probably poor?

Sharing is important in our life. Share your wealth by donating, share your food to those who do not have 3 meals, share your knowledge so that everyone learn together, share your information so that everyone know, sharing make us work as a team.

Sharing, is indeed important.

I am sharing with you guys on this story, in hope that you guys really think through that how many times do we really share?

Take care peeps.

Some good news of the year!

2011-02-14T01:31:00.002+08:00

Well, lots of good news to share. Ok, basically there is only 2, of which, I will annouce one of them later. The other piece of good news is, I MANAGED TO SELL OFF THE SONY A200 and of course, selling it off also means that there is another new set coming. Yes!! Its the long awaited Canon 60D (long awaited for me lah). I am so blardy excited.

Well, I dont think I will get it this month because of the other good news. I will have to wait till March to get 60D. I am sure gonna get it.

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year! I didnt do visiting at all. Was at home for the past 4 days of Chinese New Year. The only day that I went out was on Saturday, where I went over to Xiao Wei's house for steamboat dinner, and also like the first time reunion with Jasmine after 2 years? Well, I wont talk about the feelings I had with me when I was there. There are good and bad, but lets take it at a pinch of salt ok.

Well, towards another issue, I guess the damage has been done and thus I seriously felt awkward in the car and the meet up. I just dont feel them like how I feel in the past. Perhaps it is due to the fact that they have moved on to another phase of life and the idea we had will never be the same. There will never be best of something forever, for sure! Because its happening to me right now. I am getting use of not calling them, not contacting them. I dont even want to meet up with them anymore. I guess the last meetup will be the last one.

Moving on, I am glad that there are some changes in my life, soon. I am waiting only, waiting to annouce it here. Nothing big or important, but its gonna be a happy annoucement.

Anyway, take care peeps.

Oh my Gosh!

2011-01-23T23:54:00.002+08:00

Had a few great moments with JARZ. Hahahaha, you guys know who u are! LOL. Had crab feast and after that, I seriously fall sick. In fact, I am sick right now.. Having flu and cough, which gives me throat pain already and the phlegm is so thick and yellow.

Well, my brother went and visit John's mother today. She actually told my brother that he died because of suicide. He swallowed near to 90 different pills and lock himself in the room, with his radio playing loudly and thus the mother did not know what happened in the room. Well, he choose to suicide because of relationship. Poor boy..

Guys and Girls, to those who reads my blog. There are always problems, and if there are problems, it will always have solutions to whatever problems it is.

Take care peeps.

Sad

2011-01-14T00:57:00.002+08:00

I was really super sad when I heard from my brother that John had died. He is my brother's friend since secondary school.

My impression of him is strong because he is really the second, or perhaps I should say, that few who will address me as Jie Jie. And the way he address me is not the sake of doing so, but its like real Jie Jie. While typing this my tears has already well up.

I find it a pity that at such a young age (19 years old), he died without really living a life. I heard from my brother that although he is the only child at home, his parents make him sleep in the toilet, his parents are always asking him for money, which was why there was a time where he wanted to suicide, my brother was there and decided to help him by lending him $100. Until now, he still havent return the money, nor will he be able to return the money because he is going to become ashes tomorrow.

You know, its like... He is totally like a little brother to me. Sometimes when I talk to him, I would just ask random questions like how is his life, and he would always say ok ah.

The reason of his death, well, I dont think I am able to say it here, but at his age, I guess u guys probably will know how he die (not gang fight or traffic accident).

His parents is really one of a kind where they are so "pang tang" to bring his body back. They decided to leave him at their cousin's house. My heart simply just feel "sour" (wrenched) when I heard this. What kind of parents are they? Now he is already dead and all the parents have to do is just to settle his funeral, the parents dont even want to bother. What has this society becomes?

I sincerely hope that whereever he is right now, he will be free from problems and may his soul rest in peace.

John, Jie Jie really will miss you and would pray for you to have peace at whenever you are at right now.

Some thoughts

2011-01-11T22:24:00.003+08:00

While I was walking back from the station just now, some thoughts just came through my mind. I wanna say...

The damage has done and the relationship between these both parties have been hurt, which can never be the same like the past again. Live with it, carry on with our lives and perhaps its time to really let go this relationship.

No no no, I am not in any relationship, I think this is my thoughts after some stuff happened few months ago.

Recently my dad starts to worried about me of not having a bf and the thoughts of not wanting to get married. He said:"Friends can never always be friends. Even your best friend will soon forget you because they have their own family. The day you die, you will die alone, and this makes me damm worried."

Yeah yeah, this is true, I know... And now, he is in a team together with my mum, nagging abt my relationship life almost everyday.

This makes me feel upset, not because of me going to be single, but my parents having such thoughts. What should I do? What can I do? What must I do? Now I just want to get out of my current job, study well for my degree and make sure I become a social worker in the future.

Well, this is just some thoughts... Take care peeps.

Well, I am really ok of been alone and I know that friends will never be with me.

First day of 2011!!

2011-01-01T23:26:00.003+08:00

Yeah, first day of Year 2011 is just a normal day for me. Slept till 3pm, wake up and had my brunch. Slacked at home till 5pm plus and out of a sudden, I think it was my sitting posture, I sprained my neck. I am still having problem turning to my right now. The pain in the neck near the shoulder is really irritating. I seriously dont know whats wrong with my body. I am not sure if my dislocation in the shoulder results me of having backache, especially on the right. Had my afternoon nap from 6pm plus till 8pm, went out and had dinner with family.

Oh, and now thanks to SCV, we have got free channels to watch so at least it is not that boring. 2010 passed so fast.. Now is 2011. What is my resolution? Ok for once, I am seriously going to take my license and pass. 2nd is to slim down and cut my blardy hair with a new hairstyle. 3rd is to study well and pass. 4th is to change a new job.

Okay, I have only got 4 resolution, not greedy right? Hahahahaha.

Happy 2011!!

Updates!!

2010-12-12T22:20:00.003+08:00

Had 2 months bonus, and this is nothing to hide because the government had already announced. I am not going to share the amount here lah but its quite a shocking amount. As in, I nv thought I would get that much.

Well, I would just wanna share something here. I think there are times where you wanna do something, anything la, you just simply want to feel comfortable. Like eating the same food everyday, it makes me feel comfy. Wearing damm slack makes me feel comfy. Talking to friends about everything makes me feel comfy. Staying at home and rot makes me feel comfy. I think there is always a limit in each and every individual person in what they can do. I am not out-going, thus when doing something that is adventourous, I tend to shrink.

Anyway, I am glad I talk to Joey about everything on what I feel and its a release lah. Its like puking everything out to make you feel comfy.

Waiting for 15 December, then 17, then 25, then 1st Jan. December will be a fun one, a super fun one. Take care peeps.

Weird dreams

2010-11-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

Well, I wanna blog the dreams down so that I can recall it from here. Seriously guys, my memory is getting worst. Its really short term memory. I dont know what happen. Anyway, I had 2 weird dreams today. The first dream I had happened in prison and subordinate court. I dreamt that this lady, in the 40s had slaughtered this man. She was a mistress to this man because in my dream, the man's parents (both in age late 60s near early 70s) were crying when they are talking to me with another police officer. The man's wife was standing behind, trying not to cut into the conversation between the parents and us. The wife had a sister and the sister was trying her best to calm the wife down. I think it was a weird dream because I can remember it so clearly and the dream has colors. Well, the mistress (the one who slaughtered the man) ask to talk to me and the police officer. She then pass me something and she wants me to help her seek forgiveness from the man's family, which she had slaughtered the man. In my dream, the parents seems to have accept the fact that the son is dead and the woman (mistress) will be dead too. I dreamt that she was sentenced to death by the judge. It was the wife who seems as if she dont believe that what has happened was true. And then, I got wake up by my alarm.

I went back to sleep again and set my alarm to ring again in another 15 more mins. Then it comes, the 2nd dream. Seriously, I had 2 dreams, and the second one just come within seconds. In a dream, it always seems lengthy. Its like never ending dream. I dream that I was with this family who came forward to see if the bodies found in the reservoir is their family members. In this dream, 2 was drown dead. One man and one woman was found dead many hours because in my dream, both of their bodies and faces are so damm wrinkled. The body appears to have black patches. I still remember in my dream, there is this forensic specialist who commented on the bodies and says that they both had die many many hours. In the dream, both these bodies were found floating and the guy's right hand was grabbing onto the lady's clothing. It seems to me that the woman does not want to die but the man dragged and push her to die together with him.

And then, I got woken up by the alarm..

Damm dreams u know.. It seems so real to me because I can still remember the first dream, where I talk to the parents, THEIR FACES. I can remember their faces..

Anyway, hope I can have a gd night sleep today. Wake up tomorrow and start to really study my 2 module. Exam is on nx wed and fri. Hopefully I can make it through.

My Working Style

2010-11-14T01:23:00.002+08:00

Dear Zhi Tong, You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. Yo...u keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about. You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your live...s, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.
Your Working Style:

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable.

If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch.

You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done.

You have little wish to impress or dominate.

The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer.

You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important.

You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals.

You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts.

You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them.

You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health.

You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check.

You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy.

This can be true even when you are being as effective as others.

You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little.

If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself.

Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

I especially like those that are highlighted in orange. I am not boasting myself. The fact is that it did happen in my previous job. I give in my time and devotion to it and I really love my job at that time, and as what this test said, one of the person I cared alot influence me to actually change the job because I thought by changing to my current job, it will make her life better. Yes, she is non other than my mum. Those highlighted are really those which are damm accurate. I dont care how much I am getting now but if the job brings and gives me meaning, I am damm willing to put in all my effort. The current job dont make me feel this way, that is why almost everyday, I am always having this thought of quitting and leaving. I want to join Social Work sector asap.

I just wanna leave this damm place asap!!

Life is nv fair

2010-10-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

When I heard from my friend about the performance bonus ranking, I wasn't angry that I was rank the last our of that 10 plus staff, but I feel that, what I used to heard about how unfair you will get treated when you are not in good terms with your boss seems to come true. The person that this fucking officer was trying to push up has done lots of OT. Why cant they just have that fucking thoughts that doing OT means you are inefficient. This is what I used to discussed in RP when we are having HR module. Doing OT doesnt mean that YOU LOVE THE COMPANY OR JOB, doing OT cannot prove that you are hardworking.

The damm old mindset about doing OT has to change. Coming late to work doesnt mean that this person is lazy. I am not saying that coming late to work should not take into the account of giving performance bonus, but from this english word "Performance", it is all solely dependent on your performance in work, not how u perform when u come to office early or late.

I dont bootlick, I dont like to make you happy or fake myself and force to talk to you when I already hate you. G is not the place to work in. I hate to see politics, I hate to be involve in it, I hate to fake myself and keep talking nice stuff to you, I hate everything. Basically, now when I see her, I just hate it because she is so damm fake. Going around gossiping, or maybe she dont even know that she is gossiping because she has been doing it for so many years...

Well, as mention, I will wanna get out of it asap. I seriously dont belong to this place or this sector. It is really wasting my time and making me stupid.

Bye peeps... I will tell you all good news (which I sense it will be coming very soon) when I got it. Hahaha. tata~

My October life...

2010-10-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

Well, went Genting on the 8 to 10 Oct and it was super fun although I didnt really enjoy to the max (due to flu).

And I am having flu and cough for almost a week already and not getting any better. I guess it is the post symptoms of coming back from Genting. Hahaha.

Well, I have change my seat to another area in the office, which is much more better than sitting inbetween the uncle and the auntie. They both just gossip the whole blardy day.

And I have also buy 933 award's ticket for this upcoming nx friday (29 Oct). Will be going with Shirley (YEAH!!!). I can see my Zhang Yun Jing already.

Oh, this friday is my badminton tournament at ITE CCK. I am so excited abt it lor.. Time to run again and build up stamina, abo later I play until half way I get super tired. haahhaha.

I am also going to quit my current job in December.. Hopefully everything goes according to my plan.

Tata peeps.

RIP

2010-10-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

Rest In Peace, Mother of Singapore.

Hari Raya!!

2010-09-11T21:22:00.002+08:00

Yeah, thanks to this festival, we do not have to work on Friday, and I was on MC for Thursday so yeah, I've got 4 days to rest till I shiok. I seriously need to rest because I have been falling sick recently.

Well, I slept at 5am since Thursday and wake up at 4pm. My body clock has seriously turn into US timing. Maybe its a hint that I am going to migrate soon? Hahahahha.

Alright alright, I was with Shirley that day and I saw this 7th storey guy. Aiyoooo, he is so freaking tall but not so handsome. But anyway, I dont care abt looks, I care more about height and I was so shock to see how tall he is. He is also soooo caring towards the blind who wanted to alight the bus and he was so gentleman enough to press the lift button and let both of us in. But Shirley told me one thing, HE WAS WEARING A RING. Hahahah people, I am puurrfectly fine leh, I am not despo ah. Its like my eye candy, but this eye candy is staying quite a distance from me. I am living in Woodlands and he is in Teban, so.... yeah, its far.

But anyway, perhaps Shirley will help me to talk to him?? Heehee, push me and fall down infront of him also can lah, Shirley, I give u the permission to do so.

Oh, had birthday celebration with my niece. Time really fly. She is already 4 years old, which will also marked that my grandma had passed away for 4 years.

Well, its life... A newborn that time, and my grandma passed away.. Hopefully all is doing well no matter where they are. (cos I do believe). Take care peeps.

Eerie..

2010-09-04T00:46:00.002+08:00

This morning (Friday) witnessed a bike accident. Why would I say its eerie? Alright, I took a cab down to work today because I was running late. While my cab was driving along the BKE expressway (somewhere near the exit from CCK), I was looking out to my left and my cab was travelling in the 1st lane (fastest lane), suddenly, one rider, who was in the middle lane, turn to his right and look at me with a smile, a smile that is like "you are lucky its not you", that kind of cunning playful smile. The every nx moment, a rider at the front (few seconds later) lost balance and got into accident. The uncle fall towards his front and landed on his chest. If you guys know, its human instinct to actually protect yourself from rolling and jerking further by putting ur hands down to the floor. The uncle got his hands blooded and managed to stand up IMMEDIATELY after been knocked by a cab who was trying to come into the 1st lane.

Luckily behind this uncle was a mini lorry, the driver was able to jam brake but of course, the mini lorry ran over the bike. When this uncle falls, his bike nearly got into the lane I was in and my taxi driver swerved to the right alittle, which we nearly hit the metal railings.

What I am disturbed is by this rider, who turned and smile at me. It was a sharp 90 degrees turn. People, when you are in a car, most of the time, especially in cab, you tend to look out to your sides, not front. This rider was riding probably at 90km/hr and he was able to turn 90 degrees sharp and smile at me. I got goosebumps when he did that and the next moment, it was the accident. I hope the uncle is gonna be fine.

Had birthday celebration with Xiao Wei today at Mushroom Pot. A night full of fun and laughter. Really never fail to make me laugh till I cry. Elva was also having her rehearsals and we had our mini concert with Elva just now. Hahhaa, managed to peek thru and see her perform. Not bad not bad.

Anyway, take care peeps, especially for this month. Its scary and eerie.

Physiotherapy..

2010-08-24T22:07:00.002+08:00

Nobody likes to visit hospital, even it is to visit someone or to just buy medication. I had my appointment today and sadly, I requested for MC and they cant give because they are PHYSIOTHERAPIST, not doctor. So I got no choice, but to last minute apply leave from boss.

Initially I thought doing physiotherapy will be fun because I am able to use all kinds of equipment, but then when I reach there, I only use dumb-bell of 1kg or 2kg to train my muscle. Anyway, it makes me feel like as if I nv exercise for years. I couldnt even lift the dumb-bell in the position that they ask me to do.

Overall, I will have another session on 7th Sept. Another leave again... 1st Sept have to apply leave too. Hai, so many leave to apply..

I am glad to have a superb nice Abu who called me when I text her and say I am fuming with anger. Hahahahaha, I seldom get angry but if I am hor, it means I really cannot take it anymore. With the restriction in the post I have in my job, I have got no choice but to always agree and swallow, thats why I say I HATE PROTOCOL, AND IT SUCKS. It makes ppl to just follow on the black and white stated.

I will leave, asap, very soon. Awaiting for good news!! Muahahahahaha

My Shoulder..

2010-08-10T23:01:00.003+08:00

Oh, for the past 5 years, I think I have dislocated my right shoulder for about 5 times. The frequency of me dislocating it is at least once a year. It happens when I carry heavy stuff in the day and dislocation starts at night or nx morning.

Today went TTSH to do check up and at last, they refer me to the right clinic, which is Orthopaedic Dept. I am going to have my physiotherapy on the 24th Aug and then the MRI scan in September.

The current job is not motivating me at all, nor it is enriching me. I am always complaining about my job but then I think I really need to channel out my rantings here so that I can go back tomorrow and start refresh!

My previous job always allow me to receive calls/sms/email even late at the night. I thought changing the job and the scope can keep me away from all these irritating stuff. Today, I received an sms from my boss, asking me about photocopying stuff and said that it seems urgent. You know, in my previous company, I will take initiative to print if IT WAS REALLY THAT URGENT. I did not print it on Friday (obviously I got the email on Friday morning, this is BLACK AND WHITE) because right after my lunch, I need to attend a boring seminar and then I realise I need to do project work too. If this happen to me in my previous company, I would not sms Ros (my partner) about printing the documents tomorrow when you are back in office, but rather, I will do it. That is why I hate the idea of rankings. It is something that is so within the reach of the person's hand. Oh well, I guess it is my JOB to do it. But then again, how did I get this job? Thats because it was previously YOUR job but because you have been promoted and thus they hire ME to do the JOB that it was YOURS previously.

I hate the idea of not helping. Helping is not to do it infront of me, like blocking all nonsense from an old woman, emailing the other parties about payment, etc. Helping is when THE PRINTING OF DOCUMENTS IS NEEDED so call URGENTLY, then you help me do instead of smsing me. I think for my life, I am always been chase by sms to work.

Anyway, on the happier note, after I had my checkup at TTSH, I went to Abu's office and meet her for lunch plus to accompany her (since I got nothing to do and that she is my Abu, need to spend some quality time with her) to SGH cos her mother, which is my Ah Ma, got a checkup appointment. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. You know hor, it has been years since I use Ah Ma this word to address an old lady (not any old lady lah but its like she is my Abu mah, so naturally her mother is my Ah Ma lor) and I seriously miss my Grandma. Looking at those patients in hospital, I suddenly have this thought that "I think I have make the right decision in taking Social Work". Hahahaha, I dont know why.

Now, my bestie wedding... I just hope she will not get so stress up. In conclusion, her case is too unique and too tough to handle and explain. I just hope miracle happen and give her peace until December.

Anyway peeps, take care of yourself because it is so raining season now and getting/falling sick will be so much more easier. Dont miss me!

I will..

2010-08-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

I will find my way!

I want a different way!!

Okok, I kop this from a chinese song.

I seriously know what I want for the current time being.

Wait till December and we will see. :))

I should..

2010-07-28T22:36:00.002+08:00

I should have listen to Abu advise of not quitting.

I should have listen to my mum too.

I should have trust myself that I can never be on time to work and should just stick to the job that I seriously love doing it.

I should have not quit because of money.

I should have choose the freedom I have instead of getting ppl stalking at me on what time I reach office.

I should have consider carefully before making the decision..

Its too late now. I get it again. Everybody seems to be complaining abt my lateness. Then, to those who complain or gossip abt it, why are u guys doing so? You wanna talk abt fairness? There is nothing fair at all in this whole wide world.

I am sick and seriously very tired abt all these. I already feel lethargic by not using my brain to work. I am seriously in hatred towards the job I am doing now.

I dont give a damm on how ppl think abt me. I dont care abt the ranking. I do my job, I complete it and I give it to you.

I wanna leave and I am leaving before December. Cannot stand it anymore.

Cant help it but...

2010-07-15T00:54:00.002+08:00

I cant help to think that my father is useless and this actually lead me to have the thoughts of not wanting to get married.

I am broke and tomorrow is my check up day. I know that my pay will come in tomorrow and thus I dont intend to use my mum's money. Just few mins ago, she come into my room and ask me to take her card and pay. The conversation between me and Joey today popped out in my brain. She said that she envy friends with good parents. Yeah, I do too. I had got a caring mum and a useless dad.

I cant help but to think that my mum is suffering all her life. Her only current enjoyment is to sleep till late afternoon, wake up and watch SCV channels. I am glad that I subscribe that to her because I think she will get so bored at home.

I cant help but to think that for my 24 years of life, all my education fees are paid by my mum, which makes me realise how useless my dad is.

I cant help but to think that my mum is always the one protecting the family, not my dad.

I just realise that without a father, it doesnt make any difference in my life. Moreover, he had "trained" me before of not having a father figure beside me for 3 years.

What is family then? My mother wants me to break the ice and talk to him. She say that I am going to become a Social Worker, if I cant let go this small issue and talk to him, how am I eligible to become a Social Worker? I just take it like a pinch of salt and didnt wanna answer her question. I still feel that it is his fault and it is true that he had done it and is still currently doing it, so why should I talk to him then?

I am really glad to have a mother who will go all the way out. I cant help but to think of the coming days that I am going to lose her (like in another 20 to 40 years?) Emo? Nope. But I am just facing the reality of life.

I just cant help but to think of all these...

Getting Hip"per"

2010-07-11T02:12:00.003+08:00

I set up a twitter account all thanks to Joey Ang. She asked me a few times in setting up a tweet account because I had the data plan. Oh guys, I have bought Samsung Galaxy S. Seriously, its like a duplicate of Iphone. Those who have seen my phone before totally agree to it. The best part is, the packaging is also very iphone"y" packed. I am starting to like Andriod system (although I would still prefer Windows Mobile).

Friday had a small meeting in CCK ITE. Its after months since I had meetings. I miss having meetings, debating, talking and discussing, share points and views and many more. Meetings had our minds keep thinking about solutions. The one I had on Friday wasnt a good one at all. I am not a professional or what, but there are rules in meeting. I just feel that the meeting is redundant, useless. I had to be restricted because of the rank I am having now. I hate the fact that people can only voice out when you have higher ranks. I hate the fact that no matter how creative a person is, you CANNOT SHARE YOUR CREATIVITY when you have low rank and your bosses dont support or agree to what you say or do despite them saying that they understand where you are coming from but they just cannot do anything to it SIMPLY BECAUSE OF THE PROTOCOL and RULES.

I am getting sick of this. Perhaps working 2 years in a non-profit have make me realise and see alot of things that people who are "trapped" in a workplace for decades are not creative at all and are so law abidding despite knowing the fact that the protocol needs some changes.

I think I am not suitable to be in my current workplace, I am not suitable to follow laws that are stoopid, I am not suitable to not been able to give suggestions or views about things, I am not suitable to sit infront of a desk, realising at every single minute that I am just wasting my time doing data entry and its not productive at all, I am not suitable to keep mute or shut up my mouth when I see something fucking shit happens, I am not suitable to just restrict myself to talk to only a few people whereby in fact, I am seriously friendly and love to mingle around with people. I am not suitable to nag almost everyday that I am sian and tired.

I need a change, badly. Not changes in appearance, but the things I do. I need a change to make me feel alive and that my brain is still working which enable me to think alot and give solutions. I need a change to see how far I can go and know the limitations in myself.

I guess, I am not suitable to sit down and do work. Hahahaha. Boasting myself? Nope, I am not. I mean, you guys know me well lah, I am just not that kind of person who is law by law (I follow SG law because it is a MUST).

Anyway, like a football player in the football manager, I am considering my options. Hahahahaha. As if I got alot of options. Well guys, take care and dont miss me.

Fri-Sat

2010-07-03T10:29:00.003+08:00

Took off on Friday. My intention for the day is to had breakfast with Abu, and then proceed to school to settle my sch fees as well as to clear my doubts on the CGPA, and then off to my photography session (with an intention of taking just black and white picture). Well, the weather wasnt very good at all and thus, photography session had to cancel off. Meet Abu 8am in her office for breakfast. She was painting her office so yeah, she is my Abu lor, what I can help and do I will surely help her , and that explains why I leave her office at 2pm (because of those painting, esp the highest part, near to ceiling).

School didnt really clear my doubts but overall, to sum it up, I CANNOT DROP THE SUBJECT AND I HAVE TO PASS THE MINIMUM CGPA. Abu was also wondering about the part of paying $53.50 just to have the paper review again. Well, I am not going to spend the money again in reviewing because for sure it doesnt help at all.

So well, went back to Abu's office and reach there ard 6pm to have dinner with her and the staff. Its really fun to spend time with Abu and the staff. I mean, I guess, I am a very outdoor person. I still think that deskbound job is not me at all.

Met up with Xiao Wei and Joey yesterday to had our last dinner in Vittles. It was quite fun, and then we had our World Cup match (Argentina and Germany) in Xiao Wei's house. Seriously, I was getting abit upset and angry over Argentina NOT HAVING A SINGLE GOAL.. Argh, whats wrong with them man!!

Anyway, tmr is Monday. Again, I will have to face rules that are RULES (sometimes useless rules). I think Abu is right about govt jobs. People, I seriously would like to advise you guys, think thorougly before joining a govt sector job, thats my personal opinion. Alright, take care!!

KTV!!!

2010-06-24T14:11:00.001+08:00

I wanna sing again with Abu and the gang!! So fun!!! And all I can say is, I REALLY GOT A DAMM FREAKING NICE ABU!

Never been so sick!

2010-06-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I got a 3 days MC. I never chao keng ok, it is for real that I am sick, and even until now, while typing this entry, I am trying to breathe through my blocked nose and I can feel that my throat is filled with phlegm. It is super irritating.

Well, I meet up with Zann today. Its really nice to have a friend hor, who thinks of me leh when she is having holiday in H.K. She bought me this pastry lor. Hahahaha. Had KTV session despite the fact that MY THROAT IS FILLED WITH PHLEGM. Its the worst KTV session I have lor cos I cant sing those notes up. HAHAHAHAHAH, then I sound like a man.

Anyway, I am playing the Football Manager again. Hook to it liao, AND I AM ALSO WATCHING THIS DRAMA "Criminal Minds". Seriously, I love it to the max. If you guys can, pls go and watch that ok.

Take care peeps.

Great time spent with great people!

2010-06-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

Eat Mac Deluxe Breakfast set.

Took Bus 966 to Parkway Parade.

Walk to ECP.

Rent a 1 hour free 1 hour bicycle.

Ride till Bedok Jetty and near to Changi Jetty.

Sit down and view the scenery of the beach.

U-turn back to return bike.

Went Coffeebean to drink, eat and slack.

Some funny stuff happened and I must say it is FREAKING FUNNY whereby it was so long that I never laugh till I cry (really roll down with tears).

Went to visit a 20cent toilet which is damm blardy dirty (collected the money but never do the job,and worst, still sell toilet paper).

Walk back to Parkway Parade.

Took a bus to Paya Lebar MRT and take Circle Line, which we alight at Bishan.

Drink KOI and the first experience was excellent.

Waited for another to join in with us.

Settle down in Ajisen and had dinner there.

Buy dinner for Mummy to eat.

Take train and go home.

Thats what I do the whole blardy day. My weekend just gone like this but its worthy because of the company and the things we do. :)

Irresistable temptation..

2010-06-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

Yeah, I believe everyone who is reading now has got tempted before by some things and yet you cant just go ahead to accept it because of some particular reason. Oh well, I fit in to this super nicely now.

Its seriously a tempting 3 months. Working in ITE can be fun at times, can be boring at times, can be brain dead at times, can be serious at times, can be enjoyable at times. There are also times where opportunity are given to me on whether I should go back to my previous workplace or not, times where I question myself if this is really what I want, times where I ponder and think alot about the past and present, times where I really hope I can simply just shout ABU loudly and bang her office door, times where I would like to mingle with kids and adults to have serious discussion on the environment for SG, times where I will share information with others who doesnt know a single thing about toilet, and many many other times.

I think those who knows me well knew all along that I hate indecisive people, I hate deskbound jobs, I hate office politics, I hate many other stuff but these mentioned are those I hated the most. I do have likes...

I like to have long meetings to discuss what I would want to do, I like to share information that others dont know (not to show off), I like to work in teams instead of working individual. I like outdoors (not sales), I like roadshows and mending booths and explain to those people about what I do, I like environment, I like been appreciated with the ideas I contributed and seen it really truly grow and evolve into a money earning project, I like to just blast my music in office and sing MJ song to Ros and we both will laugh like shit, I like working and reading emails at home, I like giving my namecards out and will receive tonnes of weird calls asking me about toilet from all over the SG, I like how Abu always ask me about school work and share the joy with me when I pass my report, I like the times where I share what I learn in class with Abu, I like the times where I had meetings with her and I will always disturb her by saying that she is getting older and gaining weight.

Am I crazy? I am not leh but I always believe in doing something useful and not been useless (as in not fully been use) where I am sitting down infront of a computer and simply just doing data entry and attend to calls that always complain of late payment.

I know all of us have to move on and try not to turn back and look at what you have done, its never been easy on me so far. I myself also wish to just look front and accept the new environment. I guess the previous job does give me lots of impact. I took degree in Social Work is all because of the previous job, where it gave me lots of interaction from all people in life. I started to share information about toilets with my friends and its not just them who find it interesting, at times I feel that I have learn a new stuff, new knowledge and I find them interesting too.

I am not complaining about the job that I am currently doing, but it is making me not been productive and I am starting to realise that I am learning nothing. I am also not trying to imply here that I can learn alot and I wish to be flooded with new knowledge. I just feel that before I graduate with my degree, I hope that my working experience is a fruitful and enjoyable journey before I really step into the Social Work society. I believe every youngster who is around my age do agree to what I say. I mean, who doesnt want to seriously explore all parts of interesting job before you really need to give some serious business in feeding the family and settling down.

And yes, again, been mentioned over the phone today by Abu, if I want to go back, she will welcome me. Its freaking tempting because I know, and I believe SBK do know that if I were to go back, I will enjoy so much more than compared to what I am doing now. Abu said:"It is making you not so creative than you should because the job is really brain dead." Oh well, its true...

The reason of why I am so fucking indecisive now (I am really angry with myself in this) is because of the monetary issue. The current salary that I draw are bits more than what I used to draw in the previous job. Of course, if you guys know and I believe you all will know, its that govt sector jobs are always much more stable and they do have a stable increment in salary every year. On top of that, there is also bonuses and benefits that non-profit organisation or private sector sometimes cant give (unless it is banking lah, then thats different). I discussed this with my mum and she got angry. She says:"Brain dead job is good for you now because you are schooling, you dont have to bring work back home like you used to do, and you need a stable income". You know, her words just hit me back to reality again.

So guys, please, tell me, should I stay or should I go back?

Right Back Muscle Teared.

2010-05-26T19:51:00.002+08:00

OMGOSH right, I got my right back muscle teared. The pain was excruciating these few days, especially when I was about to go into deep sleep, it affects me really alot. So took a sick leave today to go and see doctor.

The doctor ask me to do stretching by bending front and back, turning left and right. The super painful part is when he ask me to do a "throwing of a ball" position. He pulled my right hand back and press my right back, WAH LAO EH, cold sweat immediately come out. I tell him its really painful and then he say, you confirm need to do physiotherapy and I suspect you have a muscle tear. I am sure something is wrong with your muscle. I am going to polyclinic to take a letter of referral.

I seriously hope nothing is going to be wrong on my back. I must refrain from carrying heavy stuff and thats what the doctor says. So friends, when you go out with me, TAKE MY BAG FOR ME OK. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Anyway, take care peeps. My last paper is on this coming Saturday. TIME TO STUDY!! Tata~

SHOW!!!

2010-05-23T00:34:00.001+08:00

罗志祥的無法無天演唱会真是好看慘了!!!!

Ohhh weather

2010-05-06T22:45:00.002+08:00

Oh weather, can you please treat us a little more nicer?

Oh weather, can you please rain and shine daily?

Oh weather, can you dont make us fall sick easily?

Oh weather, can you stop evaporating the water and yet you dont allow the clouds to rain.

Oh weather, I hope you can seriously start to consider of having a heavy rain tomorrow.

OHHHH, anyway, I am going to Penang, tickets has already bought. I have a crazy friend who was planning some of her own personal stuff, suddenly pop out this question asking me if I am interested to go Penang or Ho Chi Min. I got so shock but act calm. LOL. Anyway, we are going on the September, still got half a year to go.. We better remember this if not, I THINK, THE POSSIBILITY OF US MISSING THE FLIGHT IS HIGH. ahahhahaah.

Well, mum is still not back yet and I truly misses her alot alot alot.

Weekend coming, time to really relax awhile. Take care peeps.

Cried...

2010-05-04T00:40:00.003+08:00

It always happened when my mother is not in SG. Cried badly and my eyes are in pain. I know its unfilial, but I am cursing my father to die soon. Those things that he did, he is a bastard to my mother, an useless father to me.

I think I seriously had enough of whatever nonsense he done. From 1998 until now, it has been 12 years. I seriously grown up alot and know whats right and wrong. I will declare every single bit to my mum.

I think I had enough of swallowing down, keep slience for years, doing nothing but to listen to those damm conversation and seeing him taking money from my mum.

Since I cant choose my father, then I hope at least my mum can do something to break me free from this kinda shit family created by him I am in.

I made up my mind. Wait and see.

No government!!

2010-05-02T18:41:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha, what my title means is, BOTH MY PARENTS ARE NOT IN SG!! Yeah, and that means no government for me. But then, I still have to do the housework and all. Well, tmr is my off day.

Work is good, Life is great.

Take care people.

Good day!

2010-04-26T22:09:00.002+08:00

Nice weather

Nice people

Nice break

Nice food

Nice work

Nice day

Nice.....

I hope EVERYDAY IS N.I.C.E.

I miss Abu!!

Pampered myself!!

2010-04-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

Oh yes!! I bought 2 shoe bags (one is for me, another is for my brother) and a Naglene water bottle ($14!!). Bought the grip for my badminton racket and some "feathers" to smack on every Friday. Hahaha.

I need to submit a report later before 12am and I am still here blogging. Anyway, I went to the MayDay concert last Saturday. I wouldnt say it was a good one but for the firework's sake, yes, it is good, especially for the finale and the robot that they have on stage. Singing for Ashin wasnt that good. Perhaps he has been rushing for those performances (in diff places and countries), thus his voice wasnt really that good.

The next upcoming would be Xiao Zhu. I am glad that we managed to get Jay Chou concert tickets. Hahaha, although is only $98, but then, HECK LAH, can go and listen can liao. The most I will bring binoculars lor. HAHAHAHAH.

Well, weather hasnt be good lately, so you guys must take care of yourself and also, DONT MISS ME TOO MUCH LEH. :))

It was SIGG, now its the camera screen

2010-04-10T00:32:00.002+08:00

Oh oh oh oh my gawd!!!! My dear Sony DSLR camera screen CRACKED! Yes, you never read wrongly, it is CRACKED! Thanks to my mother who wanna clean the cupboard for me, she remove the camera and put it on the floor. Well, when putting it, she release it at a height and thus it created impact and then POOF!, my screen cracked.

I think it is a signal that I should buy a new DSLR. HAHAHAHHA, okok, I know I am just finding reason to buy a new DSLR. Anyway, I think its time I shld buy a new one liao. Those who wanna invest, you can contact me by SMS or MSN me. Tag the board at the side of this blog if you want to tell me that you would like to invest. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Had lesson today and it was GREAT! Maybe I should really consider going into politics? LOL, I am always interested in talking about politics, about everything lah (except fashion). We talked about religion, which is seriously freaking sensitive in our society. Of course, the lecturer deliver it in a humourous way.

Oh, I need to submit another report by 17 April. Attending school after work is really FUN! Okok, I dont know why, especially recently, my attitude and thoughts changes quite alot. I used to hate OT, I used to hate to go to school (that explains why some dont always see me in class), I used to hate to go work. Now, I love to OT (of course not unnecessarily lah), I love to go to work every morning (although taking cab is very xiong for me), I love to go to school after work. For once, I feel like I am a student.

Well, Abu ask me to go back to RAS and I reject her immediately. Of course, to be very frank, it did make me WANNA GO BACK AT THAT VERY SECOND WHEN SHE ASK ME. I really wanted to agree to it because I know I still love to talk about toilet, I still love to meet new people and share with them about all the knowledge that I have in toilet, I still love to give assembly talk, school workshop and public talk, I still love to see those amazing faces on those listeners when I share with them some information that others dont know, I still love to comment and really would want to change the toilet condition in SG, I still love every single bit that RAS is doing (altho it is a toilet job and it seems dirty, but IT IS NOT!). She asked me why I dont wanna go back, I told her my reason of leaving is because of school. I leave because I wanna have a brain dead job (which is deskbound) and I find that it is really time to let my brain rest, I leave because I am really getting very tired. Maybe, perhaps, I will go back to RAS if, IF, they are much more stable, and I couldnt find a job after I graduate. Hahaha, and thats what I told Abu. I told her if I cannot find a job outside and she is still the president of RAS, then I will go back.

Well, 潑出去的水是不可能收的回。

I still like my current job. Perhaps going to upgrade to "love" soon. Hahahaha.

Take care peeps, dont miss me!!! (recently my ears is getting itchy, everyone must be missing me dearly.) heehee.

I LOST MY SIGG!!!

2010-04-02T20:43:00.003+08:00

Oh my gosh, I really lost my limited edition SIGG bottle. Seriously, $50 just gone. Damm sian. If I were to remember the taxi number, I will confirm call back. Madaaam did wanna help me call to SMRT but then I find it useless lah, I cannot remember the car plate number and if the taxi uncle is good enough, he will send it to ITE HQ because I alighted there. At least he could have leave it behind at the counter. Wells, I bought the bottle in year 2009. I still remembered showing Abu the bottle and she commented how expensive it is.

To make myself feel better, I actually went and bought a havaianas slippers for me to wear to office. Anyone wanna buy me a bottle? Please contact me. HAHAHAHAHA.

At last, I submitted my sch report late and it took me 2 days (really without slp) to complete it. I do miss my previous job because I know that if I have an assignment, I can actually stay at home and complete it with a peace of mind but after joining ITE, well, I cannot "su-ka su-ka" take off or not to go to work.

I am glad that so far, I still like the current job. Well, I love my previous job, but I like the current job. So you guys see the difference?

Went to Lim Chu Kang Cemetry and Mandai Crematorium today to visit my ah gong and ah ma. Even though today is the not actual Qing Ming, but there are so many people doing their visits today cos IT IS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY! I do feel sad when I visit them. I suddenly have this thought that 'Hmm, perhaps maintaining the old traditional way of burying would be good though we are shortage of lands" while my father was driving on the super really old road in Lim Chu Kang. I think I have reach to an age where I will come across all these (death) and not very far, but quite soon. I am not cursing anyone here but it is a fact that it is coming very soon.

Well, I got class tmr from 4pm to 7pm. I just wish to complete my degree faster and really dont have to retain or retake or re-sit.

Take care peeps, dont miss me!!

Nice Lady with Nice Colleague

2010-03-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

My encounter with the new job so far is still ok. I am not feeling the stress, I dont know why. Perhaps I have been through a much more stressful situation, and thus the closing for the financial year wasnt stressing me up nor making me kan qiong. I still find the job fun despite people telling me that it is stressful. The Senior Manager asked me if I am stress and how do I find the workload, I told her not bad and I am not stress. I think in stat board, or perhaps anywhere, you are not suppose to say "Oh, workload is not heavy" this sentence because it somehow will just send a wrong msg to them and they might be thinking that you are not aware of how serious and important financial closing are. Well, I used to be very direct but after joining this new job, the environment make me to be much more caution to whatever words that is going to come out from my mouth.

Many happenings in ITE and I am too lazy to type here. Well, I will briefly just say some. Had an introduction on Thursday in the auditorium with the CEO of ITE. The introduction is to just show others who are the newbie who joined recently. So we have to stand up and wave. My reporting officer aka MAAAADAM, know that I was sick, give me panadol to eat. Feel loved cos she is seriously just like a mother to me, moreover, she is just 2 years younger than my mum, so that doesnt make much difference.

Lesson was great today. I love to talk about politics and today's lesson was all about politics. Hahaha, I tell myself that I WONT allow myself to skip this module class. Hahahahahaha

Alright, take care peeps. I am seriously enjoying my life now, I am seeing money growing in my bank (perhaps due to the change of job plus the bonus). I am feeling happy that I got to know a nice lady (seriously nicer than Abu, but I still prefer Abu), I got to know a nice bunch of colleagues and some will even become friends. I love my life now.

Not bad not bad..

2010-03-14T22:16:00.002+08:00

Although I OT a week (since Monday till Friday), I think as long as I clear some of the work, I am happy. Glad that my Reporting Officer (RO) stayed back with me and this actually motivates me to work even harder because I really dont want her to stay back for me and the workload. The second day of work, I received a fried "butterfly" on my desk and it was from her (RO). Indeed, it was really a super nice morning to start with, knowing that I am appreciated and breakfast are there for me.

RO has been saying thank you to me non stop, and that makes me realise that simple THANK YOU can really make me feel that all the hard work I put in is worth the effort. I think in the previous company, I dont receive alot of thank you (except from Abu). I had 'thank you' gift from teachers, school, clients, but never from office (except Abu). I guess this is one of the reason why I am feeling so tired of working there previously.

I guess some of your might be shock that I actually have to go work at 830am and for the past one week, I end work almost at 8pm to 9pm. Yes, I am feeling tired and some of my friends might have heard my complaints, but then again, I seriously felt that my hard work are paid off (not in terms of money because there is no OT pay), but there are people who will stay and OT with you, say 'thank you' even the slightest thing you did for them. I am quite looking forward to work almost everyday, at least, at the current stage, I am not feeling lazy till I wanna take leave or fake MC.

Well, to be frank, I will need to work at least another 1.5 years before I can really quit. School report submission is near and I have yet started. Soon soon. Going to sleep soon. Tmr I will had my mac breakfast. Time to pamper myself abit.

Anyway, I wanna buy Ipod Touch and camera lens but I feel like changing my DSLR cos the color that the camera produced dont seems to be rich enough. Hmm.. I wanna buy Canon. Anyway, I wanna sell my Sony A200 at the price of 400 bucks. Anyone interested just tag my my board ok.

Till then, take care peeps.

4 days of rest

2010-03-04T17:57:00.002+08:00

Yup, I left 4 days before I start my new job in ITE. Oh, to be frank, I am a little worried plus scare. It is not the workload that is scaring me, but the keying part, the understanding part on how and what should I do. Hmm, hopefully after this March, I will become a pro in handling all the accounts.

Last day in RAS wasnt that fantastic but at least I had a lunch with my dear Abu, whom I will seriously miss dearly. Hahaha.

Brought my mum and aunt to Crystal Jade for their buffet yesterday. Halfway thru the dinner, one of the supervisor approached me and tell me that she find me familiar. I do find her familiar too but I am not the kind of person where I will clarify if I know her. So it just happen that this lady was one of the person who attend the talk that I gave few mths back. Its about toilet issue lah. Then this lady was nice enough to actually wanna treat us dessert, but then, I am no longer in RAS but even so, it is not very nice to take their desserts so I rejected the offer. Hahahaha, see how much of integrity I have with me. LOLLOL, well, from next week onwards, the 1.5 years of toilet information should get out of my mind and I shld not be talking abt toilets anymore. HAHAHAHA.

Assignment is due today, at 11.59pm and I have yet started. I am so dead.. Gonna start now and chiong!!! Dont miss me.

New laptop!!

2010-02-25T22:19:00.002+08:00

Ok, I am not rich ok, its just that I never own a laptop since I graduate. I have been using office's laptop and now of course when I quit the job, the laptop will have to return back and thus decided to buy one so that I can use it and do my homework plus chatting with you guys lar. Bought HP Pavilion dv2 series. I dont know why, at first I was hooked by the design, after using it for 4 days, I think I regret buying it. The laptop gets heat up so easily and it might be due to the processor. Mine is not intel, it is AMD. Hai... A lesson learnt. Will not buy AMD in the future cos it really just heat up like oven.

Well, the job in ITE will start 8th March 2010. I really cannot wait to join there. Although I am feeling a little confuse on whether is it really the right choice to do such a big shift, but then I am telling myself, if my friend can do it, so do I!!

Went Orchard with Lishan just now. Bought a shawl for my dear abu cos her birthday was on 15 Feb 2010. Hope she will like it. I think I will miss her the most cos she is really really such a nice person where you can talk to her openly with anything and dont have to worry abt her spreading or sharing with others. Hopefully the KTV session can be fix and then for once, I can hear how abu sing. HAHAHAHAH.

Well, I am feeling very excited (and that explains why I didnt sleep AT ALL yesterday). Alright ppl, take care and dont miss me. Oh, pls do watch out for me in Channel U show (U're Are The Man). I am appearing in the March one. I am not sure which week, just take note lah. hahahahah.

New job, new environment, new people!!

2010-02-12T18:23:00.002+08:00

YEAH!! I got a new job. Thanks to Shirley for recommending me!! Although the job scope are so different, the pay remains the same, but then to me, I seriously think its time for me to get out of RAS.

In RAS, I have the freedom to do what I want, I have the freedom to plan what I wanna do, I can voice out my opinion easily, I can really meet alot of people who are all in director or deputy general manager people and all are govt related people but I think its time to let me stop my brain from really thinking so hard and enjoy my school life for at least bit.

I am glad to be accepted and I am really superb happy!!! HAHAHAHA.

Once I start working, the time for me to go online will be lesser cos the current laptop I am using belongs to my office. Dont worry people, I will buy a laptop soon. Dont miss me so much lah. I cant wait for March to come. Serious man...

How?

2010-02-06T18:13:00.002+08:00

I have a question!! How to start a conversation to a person whom I have never talk to for 2 years and only see this person 2 times out of these 2 years. Anyway, I know I can talk lah, as in I can continue the conversation but this person that I wanna speak to is quite clever. Hmm, I am not sure how am I suppose to put it. Anyone can suggest how should I start off?

CNY is around the corner and seriously, I dont feel the festive season at all. Why is this so? Because in Year 2006, my grandma passed away, so in chinese tradition, we don't celebrate CNY on the next upcoming one, which is Year 2007. Then it comes 2008, where I had celebration and I love going to relative house, especially my grandma and ah ma. I dont know why, but I really do love to see them grow old. I am not cursing them to die faster, but seeing them growing old, I realise and learn to treasure stuff that is around me. When I look at them, I realise how difficult it is for them to walk through for the past 70 years?. I am glad that before my ah ma passed away, I gave her a red packet instead of her giving it to me. Anyway, my ah ma passed away right after the CNY in Year 2008, thus the upcoming new year (Year 2009) we are not suppose to celebrate. Now comes 2010, where I can celebrate CNY again, but it is so meaningless. I dont see old people anymore, I dont find it meaningful anymore in celebrating CNY. The cooked food that I used to eat during CNY is no longer there. The fun and laughter plus joy with cousins at my grandma's house I had before during CNY is no longer there. Alot of things are no longer there at all.

Recently, I had a talk with my colleague Ros. Anyway, we both always had talk. Although we have different views in work, and we do get angry with each other some times, but after that, we will be ok. I was telling her to get a diploma. I mean, qualification is really important and you cannot deny that. Everything are judge by how many qualification you have. I am so glad that she is really looking into taking up part time diploma in SP. I hope she can really go ahead and continue to acheive better life.

Oh, had lesson yesterday and my class got this freaking damm disgusting guy. Speaks with American slang but he is totally a Singaporean, and then act as if he is damm blardy clever and initially I had a team of 8 to discuss on topic about Sociology, but then he is so clever to split the 8 of us up. It is only a discussion where no points will be given. I hate it when people try to do something stoopid and assume that all like his idea. Damm egoistic guy.

Well, I guess we cant please everyone lah but then, just dont do stoopid stuff to irritate people. Shitty person!!

Take care people. Oh, I am making an appearance again in TV. HHAHAHA, will tell you guys when will it aired. It is confirm to be in March. Tata!!

My current hook up love!

2010-01-31T16:39:00.003+08:00

Isnt she BEAUTIFUL?? Omgosh! Its Lumix GF1!!! Seriously, I feel like buying this camera. I simply love the outcome of the picture!! Hmm, lets wait for the IT fair to come in March. Hopefully it doesnt sell really expensive!!!

I wanna get a Itouch but then Apple only has 8GB, 32GB or 64GB. They do not manufacture 16GB anymore, so yeah... HOW? Should I get the 8Gb or 32GB?

Ok, GF1, I will try my very best to buy you ok!!!!

Well, went out with Shirley and her family yesterday to Singapore Flyer and Singapore Boat ride (both my first time riding it). It was really fun lar! I guess all of us enjoyed.

School has started for me and IT WAS SO SHOCK THAT I AM SAME CLASS AS NISHA, MY POLY MATES!!! And we are going to be in same class for 1 semester. HAHAHAHA, so happy you know!

Anyway, my report submission is on 12 and 13 of Feb. I left like less than 2 weeks to finish it!! Argh. Well, I need to go now and read up more on my Sociology. Sian!

Miss Congeniality!! and some thoughts related to Priortizing!

2010-01-17T00:58:00.005+08:00

Hahaha, I am alone at home the whole day. Never go out cos with the still injured sprained left ankle, moving around is tough and worst, I walk like one old man. Mum was at my aunt's place playing mahjong the whole day. My father and brother came back home for 20 mins to bath and then went out again. Watch Miss Congeniality I & II.

Its really nice to be alone at home, especially after a week of work and crap you faced in the office, it gives me time to think and reflect. Not those very serious reflection lah, but at least you have the time for yourself to think properly what do we want. It also give me time to think of what should I priortize in my life. I am glad to see my cpf amount growing big. HAHAHA, I know it is a MUST to deposit our 20% salary into the account, but then, when you see it growing, I realise that my target of buying a house is damm near and rent it out to earn money. Well, property is a must to have in our lives.

Prioritizing is important, so that you will know what is important. For instance, I have to pay my 2 mths phone bill ($300). You guys should know that we can actually pay bit by bit (like $30 per mth?) to clear off the debt, and by doing this so, you can have more money to spend whatever you wanna buy BUT you are going to be in debt for months and the amount will always grow by accumulating. Worst, I JUST GOT MY DECEMBER PAY. Hai, damm not stable in my organisation. I guess I been through really too much in my life. My life is really dramatic and I think if I were to become a director, I will film my story down. Hahaha. Pardon me for saying this, but its the fact that how much you read or gain knowledge from the society and the amount of qualification you have does affect your maturity in thinking. Some appeared to be mature, but then when you realise they did something stoopid, it really proven what I said. I am not looking down on people, I dont look down on people unless they give themselves up for certain stoopid reasons and uses all the reasons they had for this particular incident to do something stoopid in life; and I realise this from the friends/families around me. I guess I know why my best friends are Shirley and Lishan because we come from the same family background with same goals, same thinking, same way of prioritizing our stuff in our lives. (Right or not, SBK?) I know long ago that why I never click with my relative on my father's side. There is no right or wrong answers in what you want to priortize but is it feasible to priortize certain things (like setting target to go Taiwan by June) where there are much more things you need to priortize (paying bills, get a better life by finding a job and give comfort to family)?

Okok, I know I sound like an old lady but I believe majority of you guys will agree with me. The least you can do for your parents is to priortize them first in everything thing you wanna do. Think before you act. The amount of time, energy and money you need to spend on others, why not on family or some meaningful stuff? Chey!!! I am damm family oriented. Who wanna marry me?? HAHAHAHA, joking lar.

Looking at those poor who need help, I really want to help not just in terms of monetary, but physically, to do something for them. I dont know where to find all these channels to allow me to help them.

Oh, a female teacher actually gave me roses, not just 1 stalk, but 9 of them in a bouquet and for the first time, I went KTV with my brother and they are so nice to give us a big big room. It is seriously a big room lor. Just wanna make him feel better despite his failure in O lvls. Nvm, ITE is not a bad choice!

Today my brother told me something shocking. Its quite irritating to know this when my brother told me. I just dont like the feeling of been stalked (and I mean real stalking) and they dig out the past, bringing back those unncessary thoughts, esp to my brother. If I can, I would really hope to be there and shut the man up with 2 tight slaps.

Well, its going to be another boring Sunday tmr. I am doing claims now so that all of us can have pay. Anyway, if you guys were to find job next time, PLEASE, DONT GO AND FIND ORGANISATION's job. website that ends with .org are normally non profit and you will end up like me, getting December pay in mid Jan.

Take care my friends. I miss my niece leh..

Sprain my leg! + National Education

2010-01-11T01:33:00.008+08:00

See how big the bump is? Initially it was only Xiao Long Bao size, but after a whole day of execursion, it becomes like Dao Bao. I know my leg is sexy in anyways lah but then the pain is there lor and now it is actually reddish. I think inflamming in the process. HAHAH.

Oh, went out with.............................

G.E.A.N

to..........................

Quest for Immortality at National Museum.

Anyway, the games section is really fun and take a look at the pic below. In egypt, they do not have E and I. So after decoding the paper that Gean is holding (below)................ it says....

"W/Uhat blongs to yow/u bw/ut is w/usd mor by othrs." = What belongs to you but is used more by others? I think you all must zoom in in order to see the animals. Below is the decoding information board we used to decode what all these symbols stands for.

It is really fun lah but perhaps I expected too much because I thought I am able to see the mummies been unwrapped. Its is still fun to visit and if you guys have student pass, GO AHEAD USING STUDENT PASS COS ITS FREE ENTRY! Ok, for me I paid for it because I am worried that my student pass cannot allow me to enter and thus I bought the tickets at Sistic in PS. I didnt realise that Gean got credit card cos can get 50% discount and I didnt realise that NATIONAL MUSEUM IS ACTUALLY SELLING THE TICKET. Blardy hell... It was stated in the website that tickets are available in Sistics only. Argh! Got additional $1 charges lor and total for the ticket was $16/person.

After that, we went and walk from to Bugis -> Arab Street -> Haji Lane -> City Hall -> Sushi Teh and settled down in Esplanade (from 6pm to 9pm) where there are this Pakistanis who approached us and ask both of us some real stoopid questions and after awhile, 2 surveyor asking us to do a survey cos their company would wanna do some survey results thingy lah. The atmosphere there was good and the singers were great too. Took quite a few pictures at Esplanade but I think I only like this pic below.

I like/love to have this kinda outing! More next time okie. :)

Bye!~

Happy 2010 & Its NATIONAL EDUCATION TIME!!

2010-01-06T21:13:00.001+08:00

Oh, sorry for been late but then, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Well, nothing much happened and for the long break,I stayed at hm every single day. No life right? Oh, one sad thing, I didnt get my salary plus bonus for December cos we are low in funds again. Anyway, I am so excited that 9th Jan is coming!! I csn see mummies la, toys museum la, blah blah lah. So excited. Alright, gonna stop here. My thumb is hurting cos I am blogging thru my Omnia!!! Till then, my dear friends, its a new year so whatever hsppened in 2009, its already a P.A.S.T. We shld move on and leave the sadness, sorrow, happiness behind for its already a past. :)

Merry X'mas

2009-12-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!!

Got a Froggie Umbrella and its cute but then the color is abit.....

Well, anyway, thanks!!!

Had Christmas celebration yesterday in office with 25 people. Its so fun but damm tiring. Organising this is not easy, esp there is only me and Ros who are doing it. Buying the prizes, decorating the office, wrapping the presents, blah blah.

7 more days!

I am so so so HAPPY!!

2009-12-17T23:06:00.004+08:00

Had my birthday celebration today in Vittles. Friends whom I like/love most all turn up!!! Really excited and happy.

Pressie is really nothing compared to the laughter I had with them, jokes we talk about through the dinner, lame stuff where we give each other weirdo faces.

Thank you to:

Shirley
Lishan
Aston
Gean
Joey
Xiao Wei
Anna
Ros
Lena
Shahreen
Yu Xuan

I really love you guys alot lah, especially some.. LOL. Anyway, thanks for coming. Thanks for giving me presents even though I say I do not need PRESENTS!!

Damm happy!!

Oh, and those who wanna sabo me, DAMM SUAY LOR. Cannot sabo me at all. HAHAHAHA. I am so clever!!!

Eerie!!

2009-11-24T00:54:00.002+08:00

Friday met up with Joey, Xiao Wei and Anna for Kbox session at Suntec. We reach the place at around 11pm and we started singing without Xiao Wei first. Ok, get into the topic. Eerie part...

At 12.30am, I wanted to go toilet. I was looking at my watch because I always have this habit to just take a look at the time. So I ask around who wanna go toilet and Joey followed me. So after we finished off our business, the sensor flush automatically flushes down.

While we are washing our hands, I was simply just complaining about their cleaning record because the last cleaning was done at 3pm and from that time till 12.30am, nobody cleans the toilet. The flush suction was also strong, thus I just pass a comment. Suddenly, the cubicle just flushed. I was joking telling Joey that :"Wah, it flush leh when I say flushing issue." Then I dont know why I "return" and "answer" the flush, I said:"Eh, flush again lah!", and it fucking flush again right after I said it. I dont believe and at that moment, I was telling Joey, "Wah, it really reacts to what I say leh", and thus, I continued and said:"You dare you flush again lah!". Fuck, this was my last sentence, and the flush fucking flushed. I swear, there is no one in the toilet, we are standing at the sink area.

Joey turned and look at me, I told her we better get out, and I said sorry before I step out of the toilet. Damm suay. So after the singing session, the 4 of us wanna go toilet. Again, we have to go back to the same toilet but Anna and Xiao Wei still do not know what happened to me and Joey earlier on. So after they used finish, while walking out towards the escalator, it was at around 2.30am, a freaking loud high pitch that goes "Ah!" in one second was heard. None of us turn back but I am damm curious who the hell shouted cos we are quite far away from both the toilet and we are the last 4 to leave the female toilet. I dare to say that the voice who shouted the "Ah" is a female voice.

Anyway, I think I am seriously down in luck. So after that, we decided to go Geylang and had supper but also to go to crowded places to help reduce the suay"ness" abit.

Gonna celebrate my birthday and hope the next upcoming year is gonna be a good one!

Exam done!! and some other updates.

2009-11-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

Yeah, I am finally done with my exam. No more paper lor!! Now I am just awaiting for all the results to release. Heehee.

Anyway, this is actually not the main thing I wanna share with you guys. My weekends are all burnt for a month already and it is all becos of the CGS.

Well, yesterday was the CGS in Northwest area and it was held in RP. Well, going back to my poly sch does bring back lots of memories. Well, yesterday after the roadshow, my mum called me up and says that she wanna bring me to one place to see something. Her tone to me was very serious and thus I was having alot of serious thoughts on what the hell has happened and all. So when my dad come and fetch me with my aunt and my mum, I thought, OH, something is gonna happen.

The moment I get into the car, my mum says that we are going to a temple, to read my facial and palm. So well, it was a Sunday and my mum gave the reason saying that there is no place that they can go and thus since they know that this particular temple is famous for reading all these, they decided to try it out. So a total of 4 of us set off to that temple.

Well, share with you guys what the teller said. He says that I am a person if I want something, I will get it no matter what. I bear alot of grudges and if people were to treat me nice, I will treat the person back damm nice. But if the person treats me badly, I will remember for life and treat her badly. He says that I am polite and have the politics face where my job is related to politics. In chinese, he says that 我有正官的脸，会升官，我旺夫。Lol, the husband part is funny lar and I just laugh. Worst is, he says that my relationship is around me but I have not settle down yet, in terms of my heart lah. Actually hor, he is damm accurate. He says that my character is stubborn and like I said previously, if I want it, I will do it. He says that I am "ti ki" (hokkien). He says 我有小聪明。

Ok, just listen lah hor.. Hahahha, take care peeps.

Cute niece

2009-10-27T02:12:00.004+08:00

Haha, here I am, at this late hour, totally havent start my psychology report which is due for submission on 28th Oct, which means I left only a day. Well, I just dont have the mood, I dont know why. Exams are coming, submission is so near..

Share with you guys 2 pictures of my niece. Very cute!!

This is the "crying" mode she is showing.

So after crying, she smile lah. HAHAHAHAHA, damm freaking cute. Love to cuddle her so so much. Grow up sure to be a beauty, LIKE HER TONG TONG AH YI here lah. AHHAHAHAHA.

Well, nx picture that I wanna show is my newly bought Fossil watch. I had a hard time choosing on whether to buy Fossil or Adidas lor but in the end I choose Fossil. I guess after looking at the picture you guys who know me will know why I choose Fossil liao. HAHAHAH.

Hmm, now you guys know the reason? Hahaha, firstly, it is in Orange, and its really my super fav color. BTW, December is coming guys, especially on the 18th. HAHAHAH, if you intend to buy this cute girl a pressie, please consider the color, especially Orange. Oh, come back to watch, the second reason why I bought this is becos THE SCREEN IS BIG! Oh, I love big stuff, wah, sounds abit weird here, I mean, I like the watch to be big so that I can see. Like my Omnia, it is big. My watch is big. My Crumpler bag is big. My ipod classic is big. My... HAHAHA, no more big liao lah. Third reason of why I buy this watch is becos IT IS HEAVY! Fourth reason is becos the strap is plastic, unlike those leather, where if you sweat, the leather will just worn off very easily.

I am so hook to the song HONEY by PARK JIN YOUNG! Hahaha, xiao mei becoming one korean mei mei soon. HAHHAHAAH, LOVE WONDER GIRLS, especially YOOBIN!!!!

Alright, my love life is still zero lah, my studies also like not improving, my work also getting worst, more and more shit piling up.

Oh honey, Oh Baby~~ hahaha, GD DE NITE EVERYONE. Dont miss me.

Finally!!

2009-10-16T01:29:00.003+08:00

Ever since my schools starts in July till now, hmm, yes, I do feel a little bit tired, especially when I need to go for lessons after work. Finally, my social work and psychology lessons have ended! No more lectures or tutorial, but I sincerely thank the lecturers and tutors for also taking the time to teach us right after their work, and to be frank, their lessons are very enriching and fun to attend, unlike some other lecturers or tutors, who just teach for the sake of teaching.

I still have a project which I need to submit on 28th October, and exams in 9th Nov. Well, time to chiong for these 2 subjects. I realise the friends I make during uni are friends whom we only say hi and bye. It makes it as if uni life is really boring.

My project in work is killing me. Me and my colleague are really trying our best to make sure it goes smoothly. I seriously want the project to end well, instead of complains and police report and blames.

Well, I open another blog, www.corners-of-singapore.blogspot.com. Come and support by reading or give me feedbacks lah. I do not have the time to update yet. Perhaps after my exam I will start blogging about it. Well, take care peeps. Try not to miss me ok. HAHAHAHA.

Thoughts

2009-10-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

I don't really like to have time for myself because I tend to think very far, very deep, of course, the thoughts that I have is true and it summarises my thoughts.

A thought that I remember for today is "when one is very focus on one thing, they will tend to overlook many other small little things which was once important to them. Its a vicious cycle.".

Well, if you think properly, its true. When I am focus on my school or work, I tend to overlook my family, my friends. I come across one recently whom is doing this now. If something happens, the "one" will come back to you again, where you are once important to them.

Aiya, I am saddist. Lol, I am going to become a social worker, how can I have such thoughts!

Oh, I am on my chiong mode now. Left 2 more days before my last submission of the report. Well, sometimes I also wonder why I have this kind of thoughts.

Alright, time to chiong for report!

I miss my grandma, badly.

Nice to have Weekend, Bad to have paper work at home

2009-09-26T22:26:00.003+08:00

Ohhh, those who know me well, pls stand and applause for I bring the blardy checklist work home! My weekend is totally totally burnt! I got no one to blame but the blardy G**T! I think I wont be accepting nor agree to work a project with one of the govt agencies. Its freaky really tough, especially when the support you get is not enough.

Suddenly, I love to have school during Saturday. I just find myself been able to focus alot and understand what is going into my head. Today's lesson is abt LOVE. There are so so many things discussed. Tutor was asking me, where do I press my toothpaste and my reply to her is, just press and squeeze lor, but the fact is, I always squeeze in the middle. Hahaha. Then it happen that one of the irritating guy in class also squeezes in the middle, and at that moment, my tutor and teammates turn to look at me and of course, I give a face like, DUH, HE IS NOT MY TYPE. Hahaha, I need a boyfriend that squeezes the bottom of the toothpaste so that I can squeeze in the middle. If both squeezes the middle, then who is going to squeeze in the bottom? Hahahaha.

Well, I hope the workload of mine faster decreases then I wont need to face the report daily and stay back until late night. Oh, for your info, I mark 22nd September the "Most Hardworking Zhi Tong" Day. Hahaha, cos on that day, I stay in the office till 11.30pm. Those who know me knows that I dont really like to bring work back and I dont like to OT. Well, no choice and lesson learnt.

Hopefully the coming week will be a gd one for me cos I am going to have a meeting to discuss some useless points with useless ppl. Tata~

Projects, School Work, Life!

2009-09-15T23:59:00.003+08:00

Work related projects is never ending. My incoming calls is also always never ending. I had 10 missed calls from 8 different people, chasing me stuff which I really do not have time to do or response. At last, the project which me and Ros (my colleague) is looking and taking care of it finally run out. Of course, there are so so many different views on how the project should run but I am glad that Ros is thoughtful enough. Working with friends (I know Ros 5 years) is really fun. I can speak directly to what my ideas or thoughts are. Lets hope for the next 5 months, the project can run much more smoothly than expected. I am giving consultation now. Its fun to give consultation but then you still need to really provide good solutions. Of course, consultation are paid accordingly to how many toilets they want us to assess.

School life is fun when you have friends. I am glad I make a few friends which is all around my age. Hahaha, I stress alot on age hor, that is because it is the fact that when you talk to people that is around your age, you tend to mingle alot and topics discussed are common.

Oh LIFE............ My life is like... I got no time to get license, I got no time to travel (even if I have, my phone will still ring), I got not enough money. Sometimes I wish my life is much more simpler, easier, flexible. Anyway, I returned Cookie to the seller. Well, that is because Cookie has skin problem, and when I bring her to vet, the vet says she smell like fungus, where it seems serious to me lor. I am really left with no choice but to return Cookie. Its sad lah but then, come to think of it, the seller also damm black hearted. At least tell me before I buy her mah.

Oh, recently I spend time with the people I really miss, like my poly mentor, Ms Tan. Oh, she is still that funny. Miss her really lots. I spend time with my friend Gean, and of course she also spend time with me lah, she must be feeling blessed lah cos I spend time with her lor. Oh, talking about her, tell you guys one blardy shit thing, its really SHIT.

I meet Gean at Far East cos we wanted to meet in town area, and she wanted to eat Yi Mian, so the only place that is selling is Far East. Well, so after the dinner, I got a sudden craving for ice-cream. Then, this cute friend of mine, says that she wanna eat Ben's and Jerry. So if you guys know hor, the nearest is at The Cathay (mentioned by her). From Far East to The Cathay is really quite a distance apart. So while walking towards Cathay, one warm thing hit my hand and it creates quite a loud "piak" sound. When I look at my left hand, to my shockness, ITS BIRD SHIT. Omgosh! I still look damm calm and I was describing the feel to Gean. Lol, I can still remember the feel lor. Its warm and its like sizzling on my skin, it seems as if the shit is acidic. It doesnt have smell and you can really feel that the shit is warm. So both of us quickly walk towards the HMV and I go and wash it off.

Hahahaha, buy 4D the next day, but never strike leh. Hmm, its time to spend some money on KTV. I feel like singing!

Cookie!

2009-09-06T00:47:00.004+08:00

Yes, I got Cookie! Not those Famous Amos Cookies, but my dog, COOKIE!! Hehehe, this name is given by my mother. Initially wanted to call her Biscuit cos her color looks like Biscuit, but then I dunno why, my mother decided to call her Cookie, and my dad pronounce it as Bookie. HAHAHAHAHA.

Bought her on Tuesday and she is only 2 months old. Her birthday is on 23rd June 2009, which is exactly the same date as my best friend. So coincident... Well, she is damm hyper cos she is still a puppy. Her pee/poo is just lying around everywhere around the house. Its really really quite tedious and tiring to take care of her but to be very frank, I think I have given patience to her liao, especially my mum. She is really cute, especially when she is asleep, but hor, her ears smell damm smelly.

Anyway, need some help here. Cookie has got some skin problems. Her breed is Cocker Spaniel. Those who are reading this entry, kindly if possible, tag my board and tell me how to cure or give comments. I am going to use dog crate on her soon so that I can control her pee/poo. Peeing and Pooping around is not a way to help her learn nor do I have the time to sit with her the whole day, just to teach her pee/poo. I tried today with my cane but instead of learning her lesson of not peeing or pooping around, she stares at me, and bite me.

I read from the net that Cocker Spaniel cannot be smack or harsh treatment. Instead, it should be a positive reinforcement. All owners of Cocker also said that to potty train her, crates is the only thing and the easiest way to train. Hmm, any comments? Share with you guys some of her pic.

Alright, if I got time I will take her pictures again. Meanwhile, you guys take care and I also need to take care COS I FAIL MY TMA 01 FOR PSYCHOLOGY. Damm!

Time Not Enough

2009-08-22T15:56:00.002+08:00

Can we have a local movie by some local people base on Time Not Enough, instead of Money Not Enough? Time is an important thing in life and if you do not have time, you wont have the money too. Time can let us do many things but it can also deprive us from doing the things we want.

I have been giving a 2 days training (Theory lesson and Practical), have been trying to make sure all those who attend the training understands what I am teaching, trying to go to school for lecture (but I didnt go), doing those reports that is going to submit up REAL soon, trying to balance out my time for family, friends and of course, myself. Trying ways to make time goes slower by doing things much more faster (worst, it makes the time seems to move faster too), trying to spend the right amount of time on some stuff which I should spend on.

So many things happened in the office. Am I creating trouble and does it seems like I am turning to become those people in the past? Am I grumbling too much and I should just shut up, let things be and join in together to be with the "gang"? Am I that stupid to actually tell Abu my reasons of why I wanna quit? I just feel that the politics is really something that can tired people out easily. So easy until you just feel like quitting, staying at home, focus on school work, back to my friends, go out with them, slack with them, share with them about school work, talk about personal life, dreaming big of what we wanna do, etc.

Sometimes I wonder, why cant a small team work together for a better organisation? Why stay put at one place and keep re-using the same method to get rid of people? Why wanna backstab people where you can choose to remind the person? Why wanna be so selfish where we can be magnanimous, where I am not asking for monetary magnanimous, but just work.

I hope everything is going to SHINE, everything moves forward, everything just goes smoothly. Did I choose the right path of becoming a Social Worker where I got so many questions with WHY??? Hahahha, tata.

I love BROCOLLI!

2009-08-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

Well, I really do love "brocolli". Hmm, its the dog breed, border collie. Hhaha, in short its brocolli. Anyway, working and studying life sucks. I just submit my psychology report up and that whole blardy page got 6k of words. I cant believe I am actually that "lo-so".

Work life is even worst. I really do not like people to step into something which I take damm long to set up, all just because she is a manager, she step in and say:"I am the in-charge." Fuck lah, in-charge then still ask me and Ros to brainstorm ideas. Still tell Ros she dont have time to really focus on the project.

I am glad that I got Ros, my colleague, who is really there to work things out. Time is really tight where I dont even have enough time to do my report. I got another one more to go and submission is on the 16 August. I havent even open my MS word to save the document..

Feel abit tired to type here on what happen. Hahahah, too many things. Anyway, this is Brocolli. She damm damm damm tame and damm damm damm soft and damm damm damm poor thing.

School!

2009-07-29T01:48:00.002+08:00

It has been a week ever since I started my degree in Unisim. Well, when I tell my friends on how shy I am in new environment, non of them believe me. I appear to be damm thick skin because you guys are my friends mah.

Well, its really pathetic that the fact we go to class for the sake of degree and just to make sure we pass. Its also sad to see how people pack their bag up so fast and the moment it strike 10pm, even though the lecturer or tutor haven't finish what he/she wanted to say, they just wanna leave and no byes. Its also sad to see that during our break, no one talk to each other, everyone is on their phone, talking to someone.

The saddest part is to see few matured people in my class, where its hard for me to click with them because the fact that I am 22 years old. Discussion was not done in RP manner, but it was really those kinda I MUST WIN or MY POINTS MUST BE MENTION! Aiyo, we are taking degree in Social Work leh, cant it be more relax?

Well, one good thing about this semester is, I DO NOT HAVE EXAMS but I got tonnes of reports with tight deadline need to submit on time. I got 2 reports due in 12 and 16 of August even though the fact is that I just started my first lesson on 20th July.

Now when I see those that got into NUS or NTU, I am envious. Working and studying is really not my cup of tea. I cant concentrate well at night. Imagine, I BUY MY VOICE RECORDER for the sake of recording what the lecturer or tutor said in class.

3 years of half uni life, how can I survive?

Well, work is also another shit stuff that I need to handle. Now I seriously hope that the new project ends faster and get my bonus and if possible, with variables.

I hope I can have more time for my photography, more time to rest and also to pamper myself more. Aiya, in another words, I just hope money to fall from skies. Hahahahhaha, dreaming again.

Alright peeps, those whom I haven't seen for a long time, its time to meet me up ok. HEEHEE. Tata~

In Need!!

2009-07-26T18:27:00.001+08:00

I URGENTLY IN NEED OF A HOLIDAY!

Brand new!

2009-07-19T22:35:00.004+08:00

Brand new day is awaiting for me tomorrow. Brand new Crumpler Bag in use for tomorrow. Brand new stationary and pencil case given by Shirley to be use for tomorrow. Brand new people to meet tomorrow at 7.30pm. Brand new textbook to be use in lesson tomorrow.

BRAND NEW!!!!

Cant wait for it tomorrow. I am a little excited to meet my classmate tomorrow but of course, to be frank, I am a little shy so... Eh, serious ok. HAHAHAH.

Celebrate Shirley's birthday at her house. Bring a bunch of youth to Night Safari and share with them on how we check toilet. Went and sing ktv with Zann on Friday till 3am. So crazy right? Hahahah, but before the ktv session, had a gathering with my poly friends. So nice to see them again.

Take care peeps.

Tong Tong Ah Yi!!!

2009-07-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

Yes, my super duper cute niece shouted "Tong Tong Ah Yi!!!" the moment she saw me. She run towards me and hug my leg. So cute lor. Although she is only 2++ years old (will reach 3 once it hits Sept), and we only meet like once every few months, she still remember me.

So yesterday I was at the funeral (my long distance relative passed away) with my little niece, she was almost with me throughout the whole of 5pm till 8pm. She knows how to joke, she knows how to be lame, she knows how to "gim" her eyes but with her smiley face and that 2 deep dimples.

Aiyo.. She is just so cute.

I WANNA SEE HER MORE!!

Hi, I am back!!

2009-07-06T22:49:00.004+08:00

Hi, I am back!!! Hahaha, no lar, I am always here. Anyway, this picture just look exactly like me saying HI to you guys.

Well, AT LAST, FINALLY, I WATCHED TRANSFORMER 2!!!! So nice lor. I am having some throat pain now. My mum got fever plus throat pain, I really tht it was that H1N1, given that my job is totally related to hygiene issues. I am so worried but then DONT WORRY GUYS, I NV DEVELOP ANY FEVER!!!

Went Vittles with Joey and Xiao Wei on last Saturday. I guess they both love the place (hopefully). Joey was looking into going back to the place again for some beer. Its good! I love going out with friends, especially those close ones.

Anyway, attend my primary-secondary school friend's wedding. Suddenly, at the age of 22 (to be exact according to birthdate), I received and heard so so so so so many people getting married. They are either my primary or secondary school mates. And of course, naturally, those who are engaged or married will tend to ask this MUST-ASK question "WHEN ARE YOU GETTING MARRIED?" My main problem is, I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND, how to get married? Hahaha, and I guess I am super money minded. I would only like to spend my hard earn money all by myself. Hahaha, selfish? But I have got bigger dreams that I wanna fulfill, and that is to tour around the world.

Hmm, maybe not my time yet. BUT BUT BUT, I guess this little boy will be damm handsome when he grew up, perhaps by then I can marry to him. HAHAHAHAHA.

Bye Peeps!

Chit-chatting session plus some "night" dreaming

2009-06-30T02:07:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, yeah, I am having "night" dreaming now. Well, we always say that we are day dreaming, but looking at the hour now, when I am typing this post, I am talking to Shirley's husband, Aston. Hahaha, and we were discussing about something lar which lead to their wedding plan.

I was telling Aston, if I am the one who is getting married, of course, the very first thing for my wedding plan to be successful is to married to an ang moh. Hmm, ok let me explain to you why is this so..

Well, as we are talking abt the wedding plan, I was telling Aston that I would like my wedding to be a Racial Harmony one. I will have my wedding on racial harmony day, with me wearing saree, having my wedding style like malays (under HDB block), and I am already a chinese, so chinese tradition is naturally there. I will hire a live band to sing English songs and my food will be a mixture of chinese (chilli crab, etc), malay (kueh pisang, mee goreng, etc), indian (nasi briyani, etc), and of course, some burgers or steak cos my husband is an ang moh. Hahaha.

Then I will tour ard the whole SG to show how racial harmony we are in a 14 wheel trailer lorry, talking thru loud hailer. And this naturally will attract the attention of media coverage in my wedding.. And because of the media coverage that we will be getting, my costumes lah, food lah, location lah, band lah, EVERYTHING, will be sponsored.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Then after wedding I might even get invited to rally and give a speech about my uniquely SG wedding and slowly I will move to countries in Asia to promote the importance of having a racial harmony country. And then slowly to the whole world. I was telling Aston, people might be even chanting my name and say ZHI TONG IS THE PEACE! ZHI TONG UNTIE THE KNOTS IN OUR HEART! ZHI TONG MAKES THE EARTH A BETTER PLACE.

Hahahhaah, I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW, I am dreaming right.. And this is exactly WHAT I AM THINKING NOW. Hehehehehe, sometimes its good to think big because it motivates you to move towards your goal..

Well, but my goal now is not to get married lar, I wanna study. AHAHHA, well, just wanna share this with you guys.. heehee, take care.

Weekend was great, my job is still the best... I THINK SO..

2009-06-22T18:16:00.006+08:00

Weekend was great because we had an early birthday celebration with Lishan yesterday at Vittles, a restaurant that is located in Sembawang Road, quite near to Chong Pang Nasi Lemak.

See pictures below.. Anyway, I thank the restuarant manager lots because of the free drinks and nachos. Was really abit pai seh but anyway, really thank her.

With our secondary school MT teacher.

This is the plate of nachos that the manager treat us. I didnt know that the salsa was mixed with beef and I dipped about 5 times. Feel guilty when the moment I know it was mixed with beef. But nachos was REALLY GREAT, with the cheese, SUPERB!!! Was too engrossed in eating until I forget to take the picture of our food.

Hope everyone enjoyed yesterday..

Went to Sentosa today and gave talk to those foreign workers. I hope I am able to give more this kinda talk because this is the only way my company can reach out to them and educate them about toilet hygiene. As you guys know, going to construction site, you will need to put on boots, helmet and the vest for safety purposes. There are about 400 people attending the talk and I was giving it in English and Chinese. I am the only girl there lah but luckily I am boyish enough abo I might feel pai seh when I talk abt urine and shit and telling them how to aim properly..

My boots... When I wear it, I look as if I am a clown with big boots, walking around.. Its really tough ok.

Aiyo, this is something I have been imagine myself in, with helmet, vest and boots. I look like a professional construction site worker or not?

There are about 400 people I am talking to using a loud hailer. I hope at least some of them listen to me and change their bad habits.. So after the talk right, they are so good lah. They just chartered one mini bus for me and send me back all the way from Sentosa to Balestier office.

This is the bus I took back from Sentosa to Balestier and that whole blardy mini bus only got me and that driver. I feel so pai seh... Luckily the bus driver is a friendly one. We started chatting and HE ALSO STAY WOODLANDS.. Poor uncle, after sending me back, he have to go back to Sentosa again. Anyway, thank you so so so much.

I guess my job is still the best to me and of course, its fun meeting new people, be it workers lah, or anybody lah. I have met 2 ang mohs too, where their position are also sibei top one. Friend friend lar.. Hahahahhaha, I LOVE MAKING FRIENDS.

Take care peeps. Dont miss me.

I flared, I complained, I make it big enough to go worst.

2009-06-17T20:23:00.002+08:00

My title is the same as my MSN nick and FB message.

Yes, it is all about my blardy "good" and "fair" and "not bias" manager. I think it has reached the max of my tolerance level. After so many months, whatever she say, I will just listen, agree, replied ya, yes, uh, oh, ok.

I guess its really her fault. Wanna know what she did? She kinda abuse her manager post to ask our office admin to went all the way down to Sim Lim just to fix her camera. Well, whether transportation are covered or not is not the issue. The main issue here is, why did a manager ask an admin to go down Sim Lim to fix her own personal camera? Of course, this is not the only issue. She ask the admin to go library and return books for her. Is this kind of action allowed? Of course, the way the manager ask her might be "Hey, are u GOING TO PASS BY ANY LIBRARY LATER?", "Hey, will it be troublesome for you to help me....?" Please lah, the admin is hired by her, so do you all think that she will dare to reject?

There are a few times when we had lunch together, this admin told me and Ros about how she felt. Poor admin, got paid only $900 and she has to run errand for her, like personal assistant. When this manager doesnt like someone, she will purposely ask the few of us and had meeting, and think of reason on how bad this particular person she is targeting at to fired him/her off.

Anyway, I release it off all to Abu. Now its up to her on how she wanna do it. I am tired, tired of this kinda politics, tired of facing people like this manager, trying means and ways to get rid of someone, trying to be sacarstic about everything.

Oh, another stupidest thing she did today was to buy a Sony camcorder AT A SONY SHOP. Guys, serious, for wat she buy camcorder.. Wat we needed most now are cameras for my aunties to take pic of the toilet they audit.

I had enough and once I release, woooooo, damm nice. Let just wait and see.

Does having a good tolerance under the "virtue"?

2009-06-15T20:37:00.004+08:00

I think I had enough. Its not the first time this person speaks to me in an unappreciative attitude and bossy manner. So what if this person is the manager. Is she joking? Is she trying to be sacarstic? Is she hinting me something? (I HATE HINTS) Is she trying to test my patience? Is she trying to chase me off with those moron idiotic talks/acts?

With the question been asked today, I think I find no more reason to stay on. "Zhi Tong, me and PH are wondering what you are doing?" Fuck this question, CANT THEY SEE THAT THE FIGURES ARE CLIMBING UP? I hate it when they doubt. So whats wrong if I nv go office (and the reason is because I've got tonnes of meetings outside)? I remembered telling HER before about one launch and request for her appearance. She fucking said that "ITS A WEEKEND". Its like as if NO OTs and SHE WONT WORK ON WEEKENDS. And since when advisors are free on weekdays to do some launch? Damm shit.

Called back to office today and talk to the guy who dont flush after using toilet. I was telling him about the talk that I am going to give to the foreign workers. He ask me:"You nv charge ah?" Fuck, everything also charge charge charge. Be happy that they are coming in. Private companies like some big ones in real estate side DONT EVEN WANNA REPLY when I PREPARE THE PACKAGE FOR THEM. It doesnt work well if we charge everything. So what exactly my company or YOU GUYS WANT? Figures in toilets or money?

Initially I tht the talk that I am going to give will be at Balestier, but I got it wrong and it was at Sentosa, called back again and tell this person, HIS FIRST REACTION IS "WAH, SO FAR? AT SENTOSA LEH!" Damm, its you who wanna take pictures. Now who the hell complained or doubt abt me not working.

So my question is, ARE THEY JOKING WHEN THEY SAID THOSE? I doubt so.. Like Brian said, this particular race have 2 sides faces.

I think I had a bad day today. It spoilt my mood, TOTALLY! I got the sudden urge of quitting. Now, this BOSS has been successful in instilling this kinda thinking or making me acting like this TO QUIT. Thank you for double confirming that you are just a........ Biatch. ARGH!!

Received a call from....

2009-06-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

NUH!!!! They called me up today and ask if I am still interested in the job I applied last few days. Although I cant really remember it well but I said yes! It might sound as if I am despo in leaving my association. The very actual fact that I wanna leave my current association is because of MONEY. My association is always shortage of money. Staying there long term is not something feasible.

Of course, another reason to leave my current association is to learn more new stuff. If I am able to get the job, I guess I can learn alot in interaction with people. If you guys know, I am going to take degree in Social Work, and after I graduate, I will need to handle lots of problematic cases. BTW, the job that NUH offers me is to actually call up patient to remind them about the outstanding amount of hosp bills.

Pay not bad... Guys, pls really pray for me that I got the job ok. I really need it.

Take care peeps.

Spending the money in a RIGHT WAY!

2009-06-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

Bought my Polo Ralph Lauren Polo Tee, 1 Everlast Polo, 1 Kappa Polo and the most important thing in my checklist is.......................

CRUMPLER BAG!!!

So happy that I got what I wanted. Although I spend quite alot today on few stuff, but hor, I really feel happy leh. I was spending together with Shirley.. Hahaha, bad friend lar.. Ask me to buy buy buy.. heeheehee.. Whenever I ask for her comments, she will say :" I DONT KNOW, UP TO YOU." When she said this, I WILL SURELY BUY MAH.. Shirley, you shld say NO, dont suit u. HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, take care peeps. Will take pic of these items once I wash the polo tee up.. heehee..

Mental Illness

2009-06-04T00:49:00.003+08:00

Went to IMH today for some toilet meeting. While going around (or touring) to the toilets, I heard and saw some patient struggling to get free from those ties and knots, patient screaming at the top of their lungs, moaning and speaking at some weird language you never hear before. Its really upset and heart-wrenching to see patients been warded to that kind of place and despite with the care and concern from the special medical team, patients still react negatively by hurting themselves and response agitatedly.

I suddenly had this thought: Mental is something that we do not have much control to it.

Most of the time we know what we are doing and that is because its a normal routine in our daily lives. But killing people, hurting themselves, suicide are something it doesn't happen everyday. Once it happens, all these affect your brain by making you NOT to think well and then it turns to Mental Illness.

I was "touring" around the place and when I see the ward building, I was kind of shock. It was considerably dark, even though it was 11am in the morning. It seems like the sunlight can never reach in. When I went into the toilet, the light was so dim that as though you feel that its already 6pm.

I was very curious as on how IMH looks like internally, what do they have, what do they provide, etc. I saw quite a few things that are all specially considered on whether they should use this product or the others. For instance, in the ward building, the toilet's mirror are not those normal mirror. All of us know that if we punch our mirror, it will break into pieces. For the toilets in IMH (ward building), they have mirrors but the quality of the mirror is made of metal. If you guys been through D&T lesson in secondary school, remember the AUTOSOL we have to use and polish on every metal piece so that it appears to be shiny and you can see your face? Yes, thats the kind of metal they are using and they polished till you can really see the reflection of you and it works like a mirror (although it is still not that clear).

Lets just hope that everyone do not feel stress or depressed about anything because there are family members standing by you, sharing the happiness and sorrow you have. Take care peeps.

SOOOO EXCITED!!

2009-05-31T21:23:00.002+08:00

My dad gave me $300 of which I spend $100 on making a new spects, the rest are for my clothes and my Crumpler Bag!! So excited lar. Gonna meet Shirley next week to get those items.

Met up with my unimates liao and I guess it will be a little bit tough for me to mingle ard with them. Some of them speak excellent English and if you guys know me well ah, my English is really those kind that cannot make it at all. Hahaha, but heck care lah, got 2 malay girls, I think I will mingle with them more.

Thank you Gean for promising me that she will buy me a BILLABONG PENCIL BAG!!! Those big bong big bong one. Hahahahahha. Thank you Shirley for also promising that she will get me the stationary. Lishan ah, I dont know what you can buy for me liao. Hehehehehe, so happy and excited lar.

Had a surprise on Friday. I went back to office and found 2 lollipops on my table. I asked my colleague who put it on my table and all said no, so I start wondering and thinking who is the person that put it on my table, and then..... IT REMINDS ME OF ABU!!! I quickly called her and ask her, she say she was the one who put it on my table. AIYO, SO NICE LOR. I tht she will pass it to me but she put it on my table..

Hahahaha, actually hor I ask for Caramel flavour but she went and buy Chocolate Vanilla. Oh, I ask lollipop from her because I have worked in RAS for a year, and I was chatting with her through the phone so I ask her if she is going to give me a token of appreciation or anything lah to celebrate my 1st anniversary in this office. She say she will get me a lollipop and so I tell her the flavour of what I want. Hahaha, nvm lah, so sweet lor.. I mean, the lollipop, not her.. HAHAHAH.

Taking off on coming Thursday and Friday.. Helping my temple out. I wanna buy Ralph Lauren polo tee... I mean, at least let me own 1 of it lah. I wanna buy lots of t-shirt and polo tee. Anyway, take care peeps. Dont miss me too much.

Accepted!!

2009-05-21T22:01:00.003+08:00

I am accepted!!! Not about having a boyfriend, but I GOT ACCEPTED BY UNISIM!! Tan Zhi Tong is officially going back to school in JULY!! I am really excited. Going back to school again, touching books again, making new friends again, project work again, feeling tired again, gonna curse and swear about school work again, another kind of "poly" life again (cos its a 3 years degree), gonna pon again, exams again.... SOOO MANY AGAIN(s)!

Well friends, if you guys also feel excited for me, here are some of the things I need to buy and perhaps you guys can show support in THIS way! Heeheehee

I need a new Crumpler Bag!
I need a new Pencil Box!
I need a new pair of Spectacles!
I need a new set of Stationary!
I need a new bag of clothes!
I need a new nice Watch, prefably G-Shock G-9200(orange)!

Hahahahahah, friends, got my hint anot? HAHAHAHHAHAHA. I always welcome these NEW stuff to me. Dont be shy to clarify with me on what I need okie! HAHHAHAHAHA.

Take care peeps!

I AM SOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!

So crazzzy!!

2009-05-19T18:21:00.002+08:00

Did something which me and Shirley thought it is sooo crazy. We went back to our "mother-school"(母校). Well, chit chat with Mr Goh and to be frank, he is still one of the best teacher I have ever met in my entire education life. In OPSS, there are only some teachers you can talk to and never need to worry about them leaking it out or take you as a topic to talk about. Saw one always ever irritating teacher and said hi and I got no choice, have to say hi. Still the same snoobish irritating disgusting teacher.

So you guys might be asking now, why out of the sudden me and Shirley went back? Hahaha, IT IS BECAUSE.........

She bring GiGi (god-daughter) for grooming and since I was kinda free from 1030am till 1.30pm, we decided to drop GiGi first, eat breakfast and go back to OPSS.

Anyway, my workload is rapidly increasing non-stop. I can tell you guys now that I had my appointment fix until 9 of June. Tmr I am going to Marsiling for an audit because of some reasons, after that I got a meeting with NTUC Foodfare at Admiralty with Initial Hygiene. Thursday got staff meeting. Friday, I am going to meet Horizon, which is a foodcourt located in Causewaypoint 5th floor. After that need to rush down to Upp Boon Keng for audit. Next Monday need to meet up with TC ppl again with Merchant Association and need to meet Capitaland for the HTP.

SOOOO MANY THINGS TO DO NOW.. CHIONG AR!!!!

Take care peeps.

Weekdays again..

2009-05-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

Weekdays are here again. Its time to work again. Its time to give talk again. Have to work hard and hit target again.

So many again... I guess my daily routine are the same and thus I got abit sian of it.

Swine flu hit Malaysia and it is sure gonna reach SG very soon.

Have a good rest from Friday till Sunday. Lots of ideas, lots of thoughts running through my mind.

Its time to chiong for work.

I NEED FIGURES!!! (for toilets)

Airport...AND I got interviewed again...

2009-05-11T23:48:00.003+08:00

Went airport with Joey on Sunday at freaking 11am. Had Yakun for breakfast plus popeye's mashed potato. Seriously Joey, why must we go till Changi Airport to had our Yakun.. Shld have insist to go Popeye and settle the breakfast. Haha, but with me around, our mouth can never be stop (I mean, chewing). So after the mashed potato, we went to walked around in T3 and explore the engineering side of that airport, which is well-known for using natural sunlight to brighten up the place. Well, nothing much fanciful but then I shot quite a few pictures with my A200. Hehe, share it with you guys in the next entry.

So after visiting and walking around in T3, we took skytrain to T1's viewing mall and then to our surprise, the viewing mall got shrinked into half, or I shld say lesser than half of the area of the original viewing mall.

Sitting down, slacking, snapping, chit chat, see planes, see bricks and metal bar (cos renovating), listen to children's screaming and crying, looking at those kids running ard in the viewing mall.. Thats what we did. Its boring lah but I enjoy this kinda life. I think I need some quiet time, TOTALLY WITHOUT TOILET'S DISTURBANCE.

So after all these slacking, off we went to Sakae sushi.. Really ate alot that day, I seriously dunno how we survived. I really can feel that my pant's hook almost really just gonna fly out. Hahaha, but heng, never!! Abo jin pai seh.

Something happened today.. Abu had a deal with me. If I can meet her for breakfast at 7.45am sharp, she will pay for my food. Well, true enough, I reach before 7.45am because I took a cab down and she is really JUST LIKE MY MOTHER. When she passed me her $5 from her wallet, that sudden "pass" got the mother feeling. Hahaha, really had a nice boss. Anyway, enjoy having breakfast with her and of course it goes with some of my lame jokes plus some sharing of stuff to old woman. Hehehe, theres lots of things she do not know so I always share with her and she will go "ISIT????". Hahahah, cute Abu I got.

Another thing happened today too. Was almost ready to pack up my stuff in the office and go home (plus meeting Lishan), suddenly office phone ring and thus my admin pick it up and then she pass it to my colleague. Halfway thru, I heard my name been mentioned and then the phone was passed to me. Pls guess who is on the line??

ITS FREAKING XIN MIN NEWSPAPER REPORTER... Wah lao, I tio interviewed again and this time it is thru phone. To be frank, I am afraid of media. Of course, if you know how to use the media well, they are really a useful "tool" to you, but if you DO NOT KNOW HOW TO USE IT WELL, media can turn and hit you like bullets. By then, when you realise that you need a shield to protect yourself will be too late. This reporter asked me lots of questions which I go ERRRRRRR very long. Perhaps it will appear in tmr's paper. Take note ba...

I hope no more interviews, no more filming, no more of me going to the media ANYMORE!! Exposing so much is really bad... Hahaha, altho of course I get to know a bunch of really good friends but then... Hai~, dont know how shld I put it...

Anyway, night peeps. Take care.

Appeared in TV again...

2009-05-09T01:02:00.002+08:00

Yes, I appeared in Channel 8 and Channel U news for the toilet thingy again. Read ba..

http://www.xin.sg/article.php?article=30510&st=dtl

新传媒新闻报道，调查显示，在国人眼中，咖啡店里的公厕最肮脏，不过干净清洁的公厕还是有的，本台记者就跟随厕所稽查员，突击被誉为本地最干净的咖啡店厕所。结果显示，兀兰中心路这家咖啡店的厕所保住了协会颁发的三颗星，或等同于普通水平的卫生评级。咖啡店比较难超越三星的卫生评级，这是因为使用者不负责任，和缺乏专门清洗厕所的工人。至今本地三星级的咖啡店厕所只有六间。协会的调查显示，公众认为咖啡店的厕所最肮脏，其次是小贩中心，而最干净的公厕就在医院和政府机关。目前全国约有3万5000间公厕，协会原定明年使其中七成公厕达到三星级，但参与康乐公厕计划的公厕只有大约300间。新加坡卫浴文化协会计划执行员陈芷彤说，“很少人知道说，新加坡卫浴文化协会有这个康乐厕所计划，教导他们怎么去保持厕所干净，其实我们也没有这个权力去逼他们参加这个计划，我们也不希望说，有反效果出现说，跟你前几个月做得很好，可是后面就开始没有保持干净。”

The video link is here.
http://video2.channelnewsasia.com/cnavideos/chineseplayer.asp?skin=Player1.swf&player=chineseplayer.swf&filename=xin_ch_fri01.flv
Well, once again, my face... Hahahaha, seriously people, I dont really enjoy exposing myself so much ah but bo bian... Weekend is here and once again, I AM GONNA REST UNTIL I HAPPY.

Tell u guys something funny (maybe not funny to u, but to me, it is). I didnt go to office today because the filming crew plus the reporter wanted to meet at 12pm, Woodlands Centre. It also happen that I need to give a talk at North-West RO about the toilet hygiene and etc at 2.30pm. Since the timing are so tight and my office is located at Balestier, I decided not to go to office but to stay at hm and have more rest (by slping more).

So what happened is, you guys know that now Mas Selamat has been caught right? So at first, the reporter msg me and say that they wont like to postpone the filming to a later date but then it decided to stay on again and film it. I get to read the msg because I wanted to wake up and pee, if not I will not read the msg. So right after I saw this msg right, I reply OK to the reporter and call my abu (she ask me to call her once i wake up). So when I call her, she say:"You are still slping ah?", I say:"Yes, still slping. What happened?" Then she talk talk talk but because I blur lah, so I nv really understand what I was telling her and what is she trying to say.

So after the whole filming, I called her again and she say:"You know this morning the reporter call me and say cannot get thru you, I tell him that you CONFIRM STILL SLEEPING." Wah, when i heard this ah, I am so malu... I mean, she really tell the reporter this and no wonder the reporter keep saying sorry to me.

Aiyo, make me so pai seh. Hahaha, anyway, ok lah, not funny. Just to share with u how cute Abu can be, sometimes... Hehehe, alright people, dont miss me.. Take care hor!! Recently bad weather.

So many meetings...

2009-05-07T23:59:00.003+08:00

Yup, have been attending meetings since so many months ago and has never stop at all. I am going to give a talk again and NWRO and tomorrow Channel 8 news wanna film something about the coffeeshop, just take note on tomorrow's news.

Something happened in Abu's office and seriously, I guess I can say that perhaps she never suspect me before and thats why she tell me about the theft thingy. Somebody stolen some stuff in her office. Those stuffs are desktop ram and her 2 harddisk of which, the harddisk contains all her company's important information and data. At first when she tell me about the lost item, I was suspecting another person but then Abu tell me that he is really sick and thus she thinks that it is not him. I mean, there are so many other possibilities lah because everyone holds the key to enter her office. She even put a spare key in my office for just in case she forget to bring her keys to work (she got incident of locking herself outside before, recently...).

So I ask her to tell me frankly who the hell she suspect, and her answer is the cleaner's son. Of course, to be frank, I wish it was not any of us in the office who did it.

Anyway, gonna buy one new G-SHOCK watch.. Buy liao then share with you guys.. Night!

力不从心

2009-05-02T01:21:00.002+08:00

我真的很想做可是我实在是办不到。最近所参与的会议真的足够让我快要崩溃，让我真的有种做到累，说到很想不要说的感觉。很多事根本不该是我做的可是我扛下了因为我觉得没什么好计较的。也可能是因为我扛了下来，他们就会觉得是理所坦然，不会多加去理会。

我真的做到累了，我也真的很想举起白旗投降。

最近梦到我去世的外婆。在梦里，我知道她已死可是忽然间外婆复活了。当然，在梦里的我是害怕的因为我知道她已不在了，所以梦里的我是用了命不停的跑。

到现在，如果问我最大的遗憾是什么，我会说：“我没送我的外婆最后一程”。到了现在，我真的是每天都在想着她。像昨天，我在书房里嗅到闻到熟悉的味道。我很肯定不是心理作用，不是头脑作怪，而是真的闻到。想要把看着我长大的外婆给忘掉或不去想她是件很不容易的事。我有时还得安慰我妈妈因为她是每一秒，每一分都想着外婆。当然，我知道外婆现在是在某一个角落，不管是天堂或地狱，我们真的都会再见面。

这几天我用心思考着到底该停下脚步，做份轻松的工，没压力，没人催，不需要想太多。可是每当想到钱，我就会拉自己回来，告诉自己面对现实。社会真的是一个非常残酷的战场，不是你死就是我亡，自相残杀而且还能不惜一切的毫不保留，用尽各种招数把对方敢进杀绝。我不是在比打成语，而是把现实所发生的事给打下来。最近我的工做的地方就发生了有关类似的事。我最讨厌这种卑鄙的人。

希望我能赶快熬过去。。。

Too much caffeine results to.....

2009-04-25T01:13:00.007+08:00

SLEEPLESS NIGHT!!!! Damm, I guess I have taken TOO MUCH, EXTREMELY LOTS of caffeine today. Drank Coffeebean's Ice Blended White Chocolate Dream in the afternoon right after the assessment of Jurong Point's toilet. Met up with Mabel and had Fried Kway Tiow with Teh. So went to library and stayed there for like.... 3 hours? Nerd Mabel suggest to go Starbucks and have a coffee. If you guys know, I am a coffee-lover and so, naturally, I agree. Had Brewed Coffee with Vanilla (but there isn't any taste of vanilla) and the IMMEDIATE EFFECT OF DRINKING TOO MUCH COFFEE IS.........

Damm, I am seriously awake BUT my head is spinning now. Having slight headache and I guess it is because of the caffeine.

Well, my work has always involve lots of shit and urine (true, cos I check basically the whole sg toilet) and this time round, the meeting with councils and govt agencies plus some coffeeshop owners wasn't that great at all. I kena shoot and bombarded with lots of questions which are useful. I guess I didn't prepare well but to be frank, I SERIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I PREPARE.

Sometimes I wonder, they want to build toilets in their premises, BUT they will said that it is the user's fault who dirty the toilet. I mean, you wanna build it, then take up the responsibility to provide a good clean toilet. I am not saying that non of them are doing anything but its just that, put in a little bit more effort to make the toilet a better and clean place. Talking to them (regardless of who) about toilets are sometimes so tough for me.

Was at Shirley's house few days ago and we decided to watch a dvd to kill the time. Both of us were quite enthu about it then suddenly, the TV screen pop out this reminder. Take a look at below..

Haha, if you guys guess correctly, yeah, the dvd is a....... not very nice to say here ah.. Not porn lah but hor, skali I say here I kena caught. LOL.

Anyway, I hope school starts faster, I got more rest, less workload, better job, better pay, good life.. Take care peeps.

My favourite...

2009-04-19T01:45:00.002+08:00

I am now watching Animal Planet show (Young and Wild) and I realised that my favourite animal is always the GIRAFFE!! I always love giraffe. I remembered during my art lesson (primary), I will draw giraffe. Its only until the recent years our local Singapore Zoological Garden "import" or "buy" giraffe and we have new section. Maybe I should go to Zoo one day, probably next month, to take pictures of them.

My favourite color is always BLUE, BLACK AND ORANGE. Hmm, I am not sure why this color combination but these are the 3 colors I love most.

My favourite food can be BEE HOON WITH FRIED EGG and CHAP CAI FAN with my Teh-O or POKKA GREEN TEA. Puurrrrfect! I can eat these EVERYDAY and never will I get sick of it. Serious! Not sure if you guys know but during my secondary school days, my breakfast will always be Bee Hoon with fried egg. I had my breakfast every morning (during sch days) and when I walk towards the stall, the auntie will naturally start to take my beehoon with egg. No joke, you guys can ask Shirley and Lishan about this. The drink stall uncle also know that I will only buy Green Tea and whenever he sees me (or basically those who are working in that drink stall) will know that I ONLY BUY POKKA GREEN TEA.

My favourite movie will always be the HAIRSPRAY. I love watching comedy and horror but then I still love Hairspray the most!

My favourite music are always the CLASSICS, OLDIES, POP! Not those kao pei kao bu shout here and there that kinda song. Hate it.

My favourite past time is to really just to SIT AT HOME AND WATCH TEE-VEE THE WHOLE DAY. I watch every show, regardless of whether it is those war kind, love story or others...

My favourite..... Basically, I do really dote myself alot. LOL.

So whats your favourite? Wanna share?

Oldies Feeling...

2009-04-13T00:43:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I like to listen to oldies (be it chinese or english) and I know how to sing some of them. Listening to oldies do bring back alot of memories to me.

Oldies songs are seriously so nice and smoothing which makes you relax but on the other hand, the memories came flooding back. I dont know if you guys are my era and have listen to this kinda songs before. Try listening to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I78irEQbl44 (两颗心四行泪)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9lfo2Ghybc (試著了解)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFBRHvyRXls (溫柔的慈悲)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glC9_8Ijt9k (Reunited)

I got many other oldies English songs. Wont post it all here but just wanna tell you I enjoying listening to that kinda era song.

I am not old but these are some songs which I listened when I was like 2 years old? BTW, when I was about the age of 3 or so, I started singing at home when the radio are on. Its true ok. I love singing, even if I sing off tune. I guess it is also because of this reason, whenever I go ktv, I will play the old songs and sing. Hahaha, its fun ok.

Well, in another few more hours I will need to work. Going to have a talk later at Queenstown CC. Take care peeps

My outing with Zann.

2009-04-11T15:49:00.013+08:00

I went out with Zann yesterday with the initial intention of snapping and taking pictures around Chinatown area. So as we walk and explore after our breakfast, we saw one damm familiar board and both of us said together :" WAH, GOT PARTYWORLD LEH!!" After saying that sentence, we jaywalk and rush over to the other side and POOF, we went in to Partyworld and once again, THE PERSON THOUGHT WE ARE STUDENTS AND SO SHE WANNA SEE OUR STUDENTS CARD. Guys, please believe me, we never ask for student price. All we did was keeping quiet, asking for the rates and then out of a sudden, we are charge with student price. Perhaps it is also due to our outfit. If you guys also wanna get student price (I am age 23, Zann is 26), take a look at below for the dressing code. LOL.

Haha, thats how we both dressed. Of course, like I said, our initial plan is to take pictures so wearing nice with covered shoe will never help us because we might get heat-stroke. Hahaha, so yeah, from 12pm to 4pm, we had our KTV session and singing was always damm tough WHENEVER WE SING HIGH PITCH SONG. LOL. Dont worry guys, we did snap a few pictures. I am still a newbie so my pictures might not be that fantastic as you guys think. If you guys wanna comment on the pictures I took, PLEASE DO IT because I need the comments to help me improve.

This car here, is it suppose to park there?

Hahah, more pictures about our outing.

Oh, I went Candy Empire yesterday and I SPENT $50 IN JUST THAT SHOP. See what I spend on. Ok lah, nv regret. I dont like spending on clothes but food is always A MUST to spend if you wanna enjoy.

Cute right, the bottle shaped choco. Well, initially I thought the chocolate will just have the taste of the wine but hor, IT TURNS OUT THAT THERE IS WINE IN THE CHOCO. Its really freaking real wine. It is hollow in the middle of the bottle shaped choco. Wah, damm nice. Me and my brother got rid of the red color one.

Few weeks ago I went to my family's temple. If you guys dont know, my mum actually owns the temple. Took a few pictures of it and find that out of that #%$#^%& pictures, I like these 3 the most.

As time passes, I believe some of you guys do agree with me that our tradition is dying of itself slowly. Time, is something we always say we do not have enough of it. So guys, spend your time wisely on some other useful stuff.

Wanna share with you guys something cute yet funny to me. Its a message conversation between me and my Abu (president of my org) yesterday.

Me: Abu, suddenly I wanna tell u to take care. Don't miss me leh cos i know u got lar.

Abu: Ya la miss u la.

Me: Haha, at last u admit ah. Then dont dream of me leh, becos once u think alot abt me, u will dream of me. LOL.

Yeah, thats how we message. I guess I really found myself a good place, good boss and part time mother for myself. LOL.

Oh, saw Winnie yesterday at Vivo. Before I met her, I was telling Zann that I feel I am going to saw someone I know. Wah, then true enough, I saw Winnie.. LOL, my sixth sense strong ah. LOL, I also sense that something is gonna happened to my tagboard now. LOL.

Alright, take care peeps. (One last cute pic to share with u guys. HAHAHAHA)

To bond or not to bond?

2009-04-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

I am now spoilt with choices. I hate to choose. If you guys know me well, when you ask me to choose, I will always say ANYTHING, I AM OK ONE. Read the email below.

Dear Applicants,

We are glad to receive your application to enroll in the Bachelor of Social Work.

As you have read in the papers recently, UniSIM has partnered WDA and National Council of Social Service (NCSS) to offer a Professional Conversion Programme (PCP) to train and convert new entrants into Social Workers to alleviate the manpower shortage in the sector over the next 5 years.

Two programmes are offered by UniSIM under the Collaboration:
§ Graduate Diploma in Social Work (GDSWK) for degree holders (Linked to MSWK page)
§ Accelerated Bachelor of Social Work (BSWK) for non-degree holders (Linked to Accelerated BSWK page)

As this PCP operates on a Place-and-Train mode, you will be employed before training commences. Once your application is approved by UniSIM, NCSS will link you up with participating companies in the social service sector for consideration and interviews. Upon acceptance by an employer, you would be accepted into the PCP.

Students need not pay anything as they are sponsored by their employers and will continue to draw their monthly pay during the duration of the programme. However, please note that the subsidies and other funding support provided for the PCP is only applicable for Singaporeans and PRs. Students must also attain at least 80% attendance throughout the course and successfully complete the course to be eligible for the subsidies.

Please refer to the attached factsheet for more information on the training structure, requirements and minimum service period.

If you would like to be considered for the above PCP scheme using your existing application, please email shds@unisim.edu.sg by 14 April 2009.

For enquiries,
Regarding BSWK – Please call 62489777
Regarding GDSWK - Please call 62489714

Regards,
School of Human Development and Social Services
UniSIM

Yeah, so after reading it, my first reaction is BOND! I WANT TO BOND! After cooling myself down, reading and thinking it through, I have so many doubts. After calling Unisim up, it makes it worst for me. I dont know what I want. Friends, how? Should I get myself bond for 2 years?

The difference between bond and not bond are:

If bond, I must quit my current job, Unisim will help me find a job which is related to social work sector. I only have to work 4 hours per day and lessons are held everyday in the evening. If I choose not to bond, it will be normal like any part time degree, studying 2 times per week and I can stay in my current job.
If bond, the degree will only take 2 years to complete but if not bond, it will take 3 years to complete the degree.
If bond, I am secured in terms of job and they will pay for my degree course. If not bond, I have to pay 13k myself and I got the freedom to choose what or which sector I wanna join.
If bond, I will have 4 years of working experience in social work sector. If not bond, I wont have any experience in this sector. And to be frank, it is important to have experience, especially in this sector.

I discussed with my Abu (boss) and she ask me if I want freedom or security. Seriously, I dont know. My mum ask me not to bond, my friends ask me to bond. I ask myself what exactly I want, I really dont know. I love my current job, I love my abu and colleague (some), I love my pay, I love the freedom, I love the interaction... If I bond, I dont have to think so much about money but I cant choose the location, I cant ask for higher pay. I mean, this is normal if you wanna get bond but with the current situation I am in, I myself dont even know if I am suitable to get bonded.

So how people? Bond or not to bond? Please kindly tell me. I need to reply by next Tuesday.

Aiyo, just stop it lah

2009-04-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

Yes, as my title says it all. Just stop all the nonsense lah.

Whoever Huixi is (the real and fake), FTCT and Liz, I think we should stop all these and dont hurt whoever is in the problem lah.

I seriously dunno who are you guys but hor, typing all these in my tagboard doesnt help and will never improve the situation.

And let me please announce one thing here.

I AND JASMINE NEVER CONTACT FOR MONTHS LIAO AND I SERIOUSLY DUNNO WHAT THE HELL SHE IS DOING. So guys, pls stop tagging my blog for I do not want her problem to become mine (ppl do read my blog and thus they call and ask me what happened).

But of course, if you guys wanna contiune to read my blog for leisure (not about Jasmine stuff), please feel free to continue and read. Thanks.

为了什么？

2009-04-02T14:47:00.003+08:00

我们是为了什么而活着？是因为不想违背那自然所谓的“生命宝贵”，我们还没到终点，所以就得活下来。或者是因为我们的人生有目标，想要完成它？又或者是每一个人到了这世界，都会有一个所谓的“任务”得完成？

有时候我在想，人生短短几十年，我们真的能做我们想做的事吗？还是我们到了这里，是在帮其他的人达到他们的目标吗？我们到底是为了什么而那么的拼搏？

想着讲着，不知不觉我以经做了一年的工。问我学到了什么，我都不知道。。我遇见了很多人，也看见了“人心险恶”的人。有时在回家的路上，当我在搭地铁时，看着周围的人，看着他们在做什么，我都会连想起“我们那么拼是为了什么？”。在回家的路上，我们不是在听音乐，看报纸，要不然就会看到一些开着手提电脑，在那里打建盘，敢工。。。

我们，到底是为了什么而活着？

Resting mode...

2009-03-26T19:33:00.002+08:00

I don't know why, my recent mood is not in work nor my upcoming school days, but I want to rest. I always like to fantasize about what will I become and what will I do in the future. I think we do need this kind of fantasize thinking to keep us going, perhaps only to me.

Work is always fun for me but when I get bored of it, the thoughts of "QUITTING" comes to my mind straight away. I went for my Unisim degree interview. This interviewer asked me one question. She asked :"If you are interested in social services, why are you still in Restroom Association?" Its true, guys, I am taking degree in social work, I have tried finding jobs that is related to it but to no avail. I applied and no one get back to me.

How long more should I stay in this association? I feel tired because I am literally doing everything. I am sick and tired of politics and my manager make me feel unwelcomed to work. Her eyes is always fixed on us and this is irritating.

How long more?

Planning to go Perth coming June. Hopefully the plan works. I need to getaway from toilets, totally no toilets, totally no barometer, totally...

Took 2 days off and after the checks for SPC toilet, I wanna take more off, to dote myself and to let myself rest. I wanna retire!!!

Thinking too much again... Nvm.. Take care peeps.

Sick sick sick!!!

2009-03-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

Damm the weather, damm the toilets, damm myself...

I am always sick and once I fall sick, these 3 main illness will come to me. Cough, Flu and Fever!!!

Ok, nvm about getting these 3 illnesses. Whenever I consume the medication, my stomach seems not to be able to take the power of the medication and right now, I am having gastric pain. Damm!

Whats wrong with me?

I NEED A WEEK OF REST!!!!! WITHOUT TOUCHING, SEEING, CHECKING, TALKING ABOUT TOILETS!!!! I dont care, gonna take one week off after the SPC audit.

Videos loaded!! and some other stuff

2009-03-16T23:11:00.003+08:00

Well, no matter where we go, what we do, who we are, we are always involved in politics. Social politics, office politics, ideology politics, personality politics... You name it, each and everyone of it has politics. We always have different views and thinking towards certain things.

No one can be perfect in this world, so we shouldn't ask people to change and become the perfectionist we want but we can encourage, we can remind, we can tell, we can talk... There are many ways to it, but not to force the people to change.

I am now in the "cyclone" politics, where everything goes round and round. In real life cyclone, things that got suck up spin round and round INTERNALLY and each stuff that got sucked up tend to hit each other unknowingly. When things got sucked up, they have got no choice but to spin together with other stuff and there is no way that the things can get out UNLESS the cyclone are gone. Who created the cyclone? Nature right? But we have cyclone because of our HABITS, user habit, where we use alot of CFC stuff lah, we pollute the air, etc...

Hmm, I hope you guys can link it up with office politics. I am just simply like the "things". I got sucked up unknowingly and now, I am spinning inside the "cyclone" and things are hitting me. There are times where I seriously don't wanna get sucked in, I do not want to get involve. There are also times where the "user" (Boss) release too much "toxic" and thus cyclones are formed.

There are things that goes by nature and shouldn't be change. Right now, my manager is going against the nature by implementing some shit stuff. What I personally think is, understand certain things before implement, not to implement AND THEN understand. No point using force to ask someone to change. I think one should adapt to the environment, of course, not to the extend of closing both eyes. Perhaps close one eye is enough.

I dont think I can stay on, I dont think I can hold on, I dont think I can tolerate anymore (reaches my max!), I dont think I should give in anymore, I dont think I should keep quiet anymore.

I should talk it out, I should make it clear to all, I should start fighting, I should give up and continue my life in other places, I should be harsh and firm to everything.

Anyway, this is the fame! Hahaha, I dont care at all but seriously, I look fat. Take a look at the video.

Take care peeps.